whitereflection | wormhole to Jan 28 plz. (Reply)

WELL. So things ~haaaappened~, and boy, did they. >_o Disorganized thoughts.

PS. Just in a really horrid mood, has been kind of a crappy and lousy evening following a blah day, so I think it's influencing my outlook on things. (Edit: actually I am really, really sure my mood is coloring my outlook. I'm really fucking down about everything, so maybe I'll have to rewatch this one later and see if I feel more positive and hopeful then.)

*cool to see Death and Tessa again. Too bad Robert Englund's bit was so short, it was amusing to see him.

*So they finally answer the question about Adam. He's down there, and seems like he's gonna stay down there, now, huh. Interesting.

*Once I saw the whole setup with Dean being Death, I really had this feeling he'd fail, though I expected it to be just close to 24 hours, not so soon. But I just *knew* a kid would be one of those to die, that was like so obvious. It was like a Dead Like Me moment. And of course consequences. I didn't expect him to take off the ring for quite that reason, though. Seems kind of...well, I guess he was stopping the chain of consequences. Didn't expect him to kill the girl after all, but I guess again, stopping consequences.

*Did *NOT* expect Death to honor the bet after all. Though pretty obvious it was a lesson about the natural order and how much the Winchesters have caused mess with that through the generations, but esp. Dean and Sam, and Dean definitely did learn the lesson. Also seems Death has a vested interest in the soul situation...the "keep digging" bit. Which obviously points to the plot for the rest of the season now--but of course, who's responsible now, who's the big bad? (Balthezar? I don't think so, but I imagine he's related). But a repetition/emphasizing of how valuable souls are at the end there.

*The Sam vs. Bobby thing was excellent suspense, really got me on the edge of the couch. Tooootally made me laugh with the "Don't say 'Here's Johnny'" line, because I've been thinking of it as Sam having a Nicholson from The Shining moment ever since the preview. Was hoping Sam would stop himself from killing Bobby, because it's obvious he didn't want to, but felt he had to--but of course it's Dean that stops him. I guess there was no way soulless Sam would stop himself, so I guess that was inevitable.

*I have to admit...if I were Sam, in that situation, I would have been that desperate to stop it. To have it forced, when this 'fixit' had such a chance of failing later...talk about being a ticking time bomb. Though I guess in the end Death gives it 75%...but c'mon, 25% is a huge amount. All I know is that...I dunno, the whole do something to 'save' someone even though it could cause them horrible, horrible suffering, worse suffering than anyone has ever known--and basically destroy them, make them a vegetable. I couldn't do that to someone else, even if they were a horrible person and it was to 'save' them. I think...even if it were a loved one, I would have let them go, parted ways, rather than risk making them endure something so horrible to get that 'old' person back. It bothered me extra much especially considering the way Sam referred to it as 'killing' his current self, because that's sort of true.

*And 'don't scratch the wall'...honestly, if someone tells you not to scratch, not to touch, what's the first thing most people do? Whatever someone tells you don't do something, the instinct is to always do so--or it becomes all you can think about doing. This will surely come back to haunt them.

*So yeah, nod to the Sassy fans, eh, with that exchange of lines: "Go ask your boyfriend." "Cas can't help me." :p

*When the heart attack victim asked what it all meant. I KNEW. I KNEW what Dean would quote. And for some reason I was having a flash to Bill & Ted's Excellent Adventure. :p But yes, "Everything is dust in the wind." WTG, Dean. :p

*Damn, some of those end scenes, just the intensity. When they'd chained Sam back in the panic room, the way Dean and Sam just *looked* at each other, and *looked* at each other, then Dean just closes the eyehole door? Powerful. And the very end scene where Death brings Sam's soul back? Good lord. I just. I felt that in my gut. :x The way Sam was begging and begging, and then him *screaming* and then THEY JUST END IT RIGHT THERE of course. Just...goddang. Goddang. Kick in the teeth.

Anyway, I dunno, I'm a little restless at the moment, just feeling dissatisfied, but I'm not sure quite what with. I think it's more my mood and RL stuff, but it's just left me...I don't know, unsettled or something about this ep. Like instead of celebrating or feeling like "at last!" I'm just all... :/ and waiting for the other shoe to drop. I guess that 25% really worries/bothers me. And I just...part of me knows that this was their only way, but it sort of feels like...wow, bully for you that you got your old Sam back, Dean...now are you prepared for him to pay the consequences when it goes wrong? I think that's what gets me...Dean forces this, but it's not him that ends up a vegetable suffering unimaginable horrors and agony if that wall goes down, it's Sam. Why pull him out of hell, if this going bad just means he'll be pretty much going through hell again, just trapped in a live body on Earth instead of in the cage? I mean, sure it's only a potential, a 25%. But this is Supernatural. When have they ever let a consequence not hurt the Winchesters, or a chance not go badly? Whatever can go wrong, will.

Also, I'm curious...what memories are blocked by that wall? Just hell? What about the memories of roboSam, and the things he did, up to and including killing innocents. nearly killing Bobby, and so on? Will he remember that? If not, I wonder how they'll explain to him how he got out of the cage and what he's been doing. I wonder how things will be between Bobby and Sam now, also. :/

Yay, it's hellatus time. :| Joy. One last little comment, about the preview, down a bit:

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Yeah, so, I guess all the fixing Sam up and shit must happen in between episodes, huh? Because the preview sure makes everything look all hunky dory again in Sam-land. Well, I guess it's to be expected considering all those memories of hell are behind a wall now, so I guess once he's over the pain/shock of resouling, Sam's good to go for hunting again? Though...really, what is the last plot arc going to be then? Is that wall going to come back to haunt them? Or just is the souls being used as currency situation the big plot? I'm guessing the second, but...surely the former is going to be an issue? Or will that be next season if there is one? Or will that just be left a dangling plot thread?

Honestly, I am glad that Sam will be Sam again. I really am. I guess I'd be happier if I felt like I could trust it, and not have a feeling of impending doom re: that wall.

PPS. If anyone out there feels like writing post episode h/c, you know, tags and codas with the whole /c bit, I would love to see it. I think I need to see some Sam-comforting, I could really use that. :|