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Well. Well.

*Wow, some EW moments, eh? I mean serious EW. I'm normally not *too* bad about it, but the 'locust' bit? Honest to god made me gag, and I had to look away (okay, I pulled the neckline of my tshirt over my eyes, don't judge me, I'm weird like that :|) But yeah. Jinkies. ^^;

*Sam and a hooker. Ooookay then. Classy. I guess that's part of their "Sam's like Dean s1", except while Dean picked up women constantly, yeah, never hookers (I don't think?), though I have to admit, he certainly does have a thing for the strippers. But I guess that must be their emphasizing how damned much Sam's changed/gone off.

*I will note though, that Sam's definitely shown to be just all work, no connections at all (not keeping the hooker's phone number), seems to be just filling basic needs. I know, I *know* that people are going to be all "EW" about him, but honestly I think this shows a *lot* about him. There is *nothing* for him but hunting and keeping himself a soldier. Even sex is just a brief, work it out of the system, getting rid of the biological urge sort of thing, seems like. He can't or won't allow himself the emotional connection needed to even just pick someone up for a one night stand. It's like he's reduced to nothing but a robot of sorts. Either he's just...empty, nothing more than a human gone machine-like, or he's so freaking on emotional lockdown that this is all he'll permit himself.

*The car/driving rivalry was funny though. I will grant this--these lines. Best ever this season, IMO.
"My car...."
"Okay! Silver lining."
Ahahahaha. ♥ I guess that ties off *that* particular loose end.

*Okay, they really gave some ouch about Cas coming for Dean calling. The whole "profound bound" thing is certainly a cookie for those who ship. Though there was that added bit of what *really* made Cas show up was the case. But still. Ow for Sam. There were two times I thought I saw the emotions crack through on Sam's face, and this bit was one of them.

*The scene with finding the 'brand' on the kid's to locate the angel who bought his soul. I know this is going to be controversial as fuck. But I wonder how many people will focus on Cas who tortured the kid (albeit young teenager, it appeared to me), and how many people will freak out about how Dean was against it and Sam wasn't. What I see is that in this *big* way, Sam and Castiel are VERY similar. Cas has to do this because it's the *only* way. And he can't afford to care, because he doesn't have the luxury--it's the *only* way for him to find the angel. Sam is very like this now--perhaps one of the reasons he's like how he is, is because he can no longer afford the luxury of caring. Either because of the emotional lockdown theory, or he's being forced to be like he is now, or because he *has* to hunt and bring evil down, and he'll do anything it takes to achieve that. It's the ends justify the means theme again. But at the same time, it is, I must say, more heavy-handedness on the part of the writers to show that Dean is good/light/compassionate/human, while Sam is being portrayed as untrustworthy/hard/dark/bad/mean/etc. I really do want to see the WHY, and where they are going with this. I really hope it's not yet another "Sam is bad bad evil" thing, because that not only has been done, he fucking ATONED BY GOING TO HELL. HE SAVED THE FUCKING WORLD. When's the guy ever gonna get a break? Why does he always have to be the show's scapegoat for the fandom to vilify even when he's not the villain and there's a real villain out there.

*The one thing I will say, that's been on my mind lately, is that I miss when the brothers really loved, trusted and had faith in each other. TRUE love, the sort where you love unconditionally, having faith and trust not because someone doesn't show things that look bad--but having faith and trust EVEN WHEN THEY DO. I miss the days of 'would do anything', because now it's more 'would do anything except if you're anything less than a perfect saint'. Anyway. Off soapbox.

*So, Balthazar...in short, makes me think the phrase "angels gone wild". :p I sort of like him, but in that he makes me laugh and reminds me of Crowley. (Seriously, he and Crowley would be fucking FUNNY together, imo.)

*I am sort of wondering if this is a important point: the whole "any idea what souls are worth?" The concept that souls are *worth* such, and have such power, that they've become like a sort of currency--could be a big clue. Also wondering if this is a flag about maybe what could be going on with Sam. Perhaps, someone has taken his soul? Stolen it, has control of it, something like that? Could it be possible that it's a 'I've brought you back, you will do X for me' situation, which could explain one, how he's lacking humanity in a way, and why *all* he does is hunt, no breaks at all. Because he has to?

*Almost missed it--the other bit where I thought the cracks in Sam's emotional shell showed? When Cas mentioned that Rafael is trying to start the Apocalypse again. Sam's face then...ouch. Like it showed through momentarily that after all he gave up, all he suffered, all he sacrificed, after he SAVED the world, that it could all start again. Yeah, I think that hit him hard, even if just for a moment.

*End scene. Just...ouch. They may be together, but way for them to emphasize how far apart they still are. The getting in the car separately as opposed to the classic synced-door slams. The confrontation about how different Sam is, with Sam just shrugging it off, and Dean's face at the end--displeased, distrusting. But what wasn't there, it seemed like, was worry, compassion. I just don't feel like he's seeing this as his brother anymore. Despite how freaking STRONG their bond was by the end of s5, the whole him standing by Sam's side, being there even at the very end. Like he's just...I guess he's still too pissed about Sam not letting him know he was alive, to be anything more than angry and distrustful anymore? It's like sort of worse than early s5 even, because even when he was saying how he couldn't trust Sam anymore then, at least it seemed like it was causing him pain, that he still loved Sam. Now, it just seems like he's angry and distrustful and that's it.

I can't believe after the end of s5, all the atonement and redemption and heroism and *brothers*, that they've made them this distant and hard to each other. I guess I'm back to wanting to see WHY, where the writers are taking this and FFS ARE THEY GOING TO FIX IT. Are they going to bring us back to brothers who love each other so much that they'll do ANYTHING for each other, the brothers that died/sold souls, went to hell for each other, saved each other...or is that truly lost for good? I dunno. This is my worry, and maybe it's just my unfortunate mood today making me be unhappy like this.

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*That was kind of weird, wasn't it? A promo for not just one episode, but longer for several? I WANT EP 6 FFS. I hope ep. 6 starts Sam finally cracking and letting it out. I'm crossing my fingers that it goes that way, and isn't just more of what this ep's end scene was like. And please don't let it be a 'Sam's forced to reveal the truth and it turns out he really is a horrible person boo hiss'. I just hope the writers remember the fucking awesome Sam that was who he developed into in s5. REMEMBER SAM IN 5.22, WRITERS, OKAY? REMEMBER HOW HE WAS THE HERO? AND HE AND DEAN WERE HEROES TOGETHER? Ergh. Okay, my mood is definitely influencing me. Time to go distract myself.
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P.S. That friend of mine did call. : / At least, she needs slightly less of a loan than she originally asked for, but still needs the money, still pretty much has left us no choice but to do so. After conferring with the husband, think the decision is yes, we'll do it, but with the emphasis of no more and don't *ever* ask again, because there won't be a friendship anymore. We will walk away, so to speak.

God's sake, show, bring back some *real* brothersness and some of them truly caring about each other and SHOW US THAT EROTIC CODEPENDENCY PLEASE. Also, I would like some breaking-down, emotional Sam please, the hc lover in me demands it. As well as some focus on Sam, and not just everything Dean-centric with Sam being only there to show how he's opposite of Dean and shady in comparison. Augh, okay, my mood again, I'll shut up. (I like Dean, I love Dean, really I do. I'm just stressing about things and I am seriously stupidly bummed about my favorite being the object of hate and that the writers are *encouraging* it. I'm just looking back at 5.22 and going "but, but hero and beloved and mourned and and what IS this? D:". Also, I haven't eaten. I guess I should. : / Hormones + hypoglycemic = me being stupidly upset.)