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[whitereflection]

Just random bits of thoughts:

*I dunno, seeing Dean gone domestic just...he looked so much older to me. Not sure if it was because the 'daily life' things just made me think of my Dad or what, but, man, he just...*felt* older. Was amused that not only were there protections on the house, but that he still keeps a gun on hand. :p

*Criminy, I was about going nucking futz by ten minutes after with 'Where's Sam?' spazzing. God, I was going seriously nuts. SO HAPPY when he finally showed up again.

*Lotta stuff tore me up this ep--that hug, fuck yeah, Dean saying "This is heaven?" when waking up to see Sam, god, so many of Dean's expressions throughout the ep when he realized that he hadn't known that Sam was alive and that even Bobby hadn't told him. And the ending just made me ache. Not in tears, not hurting like certain of last season's eps left me, but still, really aching.

*Mostly meh on the new hunters, sort of "Um wat" about the Samuel resurrection, though I am intrigued as to why, as well as definitely wanting more info as to what got Sam out. But I like Gwen, heh. For some reason she faintly reminds me of a young Sigourney Weaver.

*Poor Bobby. That "If you're here, something's wrong" sort of sums up a lot of his relationship with the boys. Though of course there was the obvious meaning of knowing Dean had been pulled from normal life, and with them all keeping him in the dark, of course that'd mean something bad. But it really has additional layers for how they can always turn to him for help, but also, sometimes, that's the only contact he has with them, is that they come to him for help. Though the reverse is true, as well, yeah. Anyway, just sort of pondering on that.

*I have to admit, while them keeping him in the dark about Sam was not the right thing to do, it was also definitely the right thing to do. His first reaction was to do exactly what they'd thought he'd do. Though obviously he changed his mind on that by the end.

*The thing that gets me with Dean's relationship with Lisa and Ben though, is I think he really does care about them, but it just feels...eh, this is me just talking out of my ass... It's just...it's sort of off. It's more like...he and Lisa obviously care about each other, but it doesn't feel like love, to me. It feels like...just well, like in talking about what was the best year of her life, the thing Lisa highlighted was how Dean was such a good father figure for Ben, the sort she'd hoped for. And of course we know why Dean was there, but why he goes back? Protecting them, knowing he's made them vulnerable. I'm curious where they'll go with this all. But I just...to me I see contrasts in this to Sam and Jess. Not going to say Dean and Lisa might not love each other, but to me, it just feels more like they were together because they fit each others' needs. Anyway, again, just pondering. P.S. Just adding that I actually like Lisa more than I expected I would at this point--she's smart, as I expected she'd be. P.P.S. Resurrected!Ellen/Lisa, I'm just sayin. :p Or Lisa/Gwen, hmm maybe.

*Anyway. Badass fighting Sam? Loved it. :)

*The Campbells kidnapping the one djinn? Ok, what. Why that's not suspicious at all. Especially doing it without either Dean or Sam knowing. I definitely don't trust them now.

*Sam at the end...the bit of "wouldn't even think to try". Criminy. That...says so damned much about how much Sam has changed. I also found this bit interesting, because I think this is key to Sam wanting to be with Dean again, after purposefully staying away for that whole year. I think he realizes first of all, that the way Dean is, the running in because he cares, that Dean's needing protecting, or at least someone to have his back. That even in normal life, Dean's going to be like this and eventually it's going to get him hurt or killed--especially with the weird changes in monsters. But also, I think maybe Sam realizes that something's missing in himself now, that caring, that trying to help others, and that he needs Dean as a partner to bring that to the hunt. A balance each other/complete each other/yin-yang/partners sort of thing, maybe. Again, speaking out of my ass, but I just could see this another reason after so long of now wanting Dean back. Because yeah, they need hunters because of the weird shit, but they needed hunters that whole time and he and Bobby kept Dean out of it because they...well I guess I see it as giving him the gift of normal, hunt-free life with spouse and family. Just now, I think Sam realizes he *needs* Dean, for a lot of reasons.

*Him offering Sam the keys to the Impala? God, okay, that did make me hurt. Damn. Gives me flashbacks to last season. And just like then, that's just probably the most Dean way of saying he loves someone there is.

Anyway. I kept thinking while watching that I am SO fucking glad show's back. Probably won't be everyone's cup of tea, but I liked it, and I'm just fucking *wanting* more so damned badly. I want next Friday like freaking now. I know they're just laying the groundwork, but still. Where they left off, just ugh, has me impatient for the to get the 'start the season storyarc' stuff done already. Get them together and on the road, ffs.

I need a new title card icon.



...but seriously, I *really* want to know what the hell is up with Sam. I want details DX How, what's he remember, is he going to remain sort of...distant, or will he sort of find his way back to himself? I mean, Dean did. Eh, anyway. (:x Um. I kind of want to see it when Sam finally cracks and the emotions hit again. I can't help but think it's not that he can't feel or has gone cold, but...I think it's got to be a he's keeping himself very controlled thing. Just imo.)


...ETA. Man, I'm going to stop reading others' reactions. I expected to see a lot of things, and some of it's helping me to see past my just-excited-show's-back to see that yeah, there's definitely some bits I was dissatisfied with. But wow. The Sam hate...I just. Man, that makes me sad to see. :/ Seriously sad. Honestly, I thought people left that behind in s4. (And no, not on my flist, just was out wandering through various places, and happened upon something.) I mean, jeez. He and Bobby not telling Dean in a way was a--was an attempt at a gift of sorts. Like I said, wasn't the right thing to do, yet was the right thing as well. Sam and even Bobby were trying to give Dean something he's never, ever, EVER had his entire life. And with a character like that who so often puts others before himself, has done so since he was you know, 4...I can see why they chose to do what they did. Because again, if he'd been told, he'd do exactly what he did do at first--leave, even if it was leaving something he very much wanted. But yeah, a damned if Sam did, damned if Sam didn't situation. But fuck, to hate him for it. That's just...a bit much. I really hope this doesn't mean fandom's heading for more s4 atmosphere--I really liked that s5 felt fairly free of that sort of thing.

Though it reminds me of something kros_21 and I were discussing recently--that when people don't like something that happens in a show, they hate the character...not once saying instead "I hate the writers for making that character do that". Just once I'd like to see that be someone's first reaction. Since, you know, what characters do, for better or worse, is because of a writer or group of writers. They don't do this themselves, because yeah, they're not real. No free will there.

Anyway. Enough thinking about it. Letting it go, just gonna look forward to next week.



Btw, dear show, goddamnit, it so feels like it's Thursday and tomorrow's Friday. This feels weird. Argh. \o/