rough poem

[whitereflection]

Haven't written anything much in a long, long while. Had a couple phrases that have been stuck in my head a long time, never been able to put them into anything, esp. something that fit what was going through my head about the subject. Not sure if it's really got it right, dunno if it resonates the feeling or just is words, but at least I got something down.


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2:30
and all my empty places
tell me plainly
again
how many no moon nights
it's been since
you've been gone
2:30
and you still haunt me
and i still miss you
and i still make brain-bullet lists
of all that i did
and am doing
wrong
and of how i'm lonely
and of how that's my fault
2:30
i pretended
it wouldn't happen
but i think i've always known
i'd push too far
i'd pull (away) too hard
i'd be distant
silent for too long
-and still I won't change
2:30
says that
even strong hearts
can be bruised broken
'it's okay'
might turn a lie
and a
friend-forever-love
can quietly fade to nothing
and never become.

3:00.


dvad 5-15-06

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Now for a couple hours sleep.