It's too early!! *flails*
Aug. 7th, 2002 07:31 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
whitereflectionEr. ^^;; Okay, so I'm not to work *that* much earlier than usual--only a half hour. But getting up at 5 instead of 6 to get James to Don's on time for their trip to GenCon just has thrown my whole day out of whack. Since we had to leave the house by 5:30, I skipped a shower, which leaves me feeling megascuzzy (XP I *hate* that.) but it was that or get up at say, 4. XP XP No fscking way. And it's damned trippy driving around 5:30. It's dark, but an odd, softer sort of dark--a dark blue rather than black sort of color to everything. And it even smells different--like the fuel/exhaust smell is sharper, more pronounced somehow. It's so deserted out on the roads and interstate, too--for some reason I find it creepy, eerie almost.
I guess I'm the sort of person who just likes dusk/evening/sunsets better. I mean, I like how sunrises *look*, I just don't want to see them happen. I just feel unsettled by that transition from dark lightening into day. I know it should be a happy-everything's-waking-up thing, but still, it just has always tripped me out. I'd rather get up after sun-up. Yes, this is often why I'm wonky in winter around the daylight savings time switches. But at least then even if I'm getting up when it's dark, it's usually light by the time I'm finished showering and getting ready.
Anyhoo, enough of my weirdness. So we got James on his way to GenCon in Milwaukee with Don (movie night Don, not DnD Don) and Norm--amazing how much money that's costing us. >_< When I decided to skip YaoiCon since Nix wasn't going and I couldn't afford it on my own, I didn't consider how much it was still going to cost to send James to this con, even despite the fact that he's sharing a ride and room with the guys. Ah well. I just wish I could have done the things I wanted to while he's gone--going out dancing, going to Wichita. I mean, I'll be doing stuff, like going to dinner with Dad Thursday and hanging out with Anj, Kelly, and Katherine Saturday to show them Gravitation, but that's more *normal* stuff, and I'd wanted to do something out of the ordinary, unique. Ah well again. I can try to plan something special later--I'd just wanted to do something when I had the rare opportunity to be on my own.
Legs are about the same as yesterday morning, but I'm dealing ok. Last evening they were really, really aggravated for some reason, and aching more than usual. :P By the time I got home from my lesson, they were really giving me grief, and the left almost wanted to lock up totally. Ended up on the couch, eventually falling asleep watching MST3K Shorts videos--which is entertaining, and let me rest my legs, but still not the way I wanted to spend the rest of the evening. Meh. Gonna still try to take it easy today so they don't get so bad again. I'm still going to talk to Michael this evening, but we're getting together a bunch earlier so I can get home and crash before wearing out. And after the past few days, I'm really starting to notice that I have no clue how to spell 'aggrevate' (aggravate? aggrivate?) properly.
The lesson went rather well last night, I have to admit, though. It was just me and that one kid again--and he still hasn't practiced much. ^^; I feel bad, being ahead of him this much. I feel like I'm always kind of taking the class over with my questions and whatnot, and getting more play-time. He kinda hangs back. *scratches head* Dunno what to do about it--I keep trying to give him his equal time with the instructor, and keep trying to help him when I can and be encouraging, as he kinda gets down on himself about not sounding so good. But I really do think I'm learning something--not just fingerings and chords, but how it all works together. It's making sense, which is scary somehow. ^^; Heh.
*checks the time* Okay, just because I'm the obsessed freak that I am, I have to note it's now been one week. And I did stop this morning at a Brueggers on the east side of town and have a bagel with chive cream cheese (which is what I'd stopped to get last Wednesday morning, which put me in the position to be on the road at just the right time to have it all happen with me instead of someone else >_<; ). Yeah, I did it mostly to have food to take my Naproxen with and to waste time before the Library opened to staff at 7:15...but I just also felt it was appropriate somehow, since last week's bagel sat in the car at the accident scene so long I never got to eat it.
Anyway, yeah, I'm being weird again. *flails* Awrighty then.
I guess I'm the sort of person who just likes dusk/evening/sunsets better. I mean, I like how sunrises *look*, I just don't want to see them happen. I just feel unsettled by that transition from dark lightening into day. I know it should be a happy-everything's-waking-up thing, but still, it just has always tripped me out. I'd rather get up after sun-up. Yes, this is often why I'm wonky in winter around the daylight savings time switches. But at least then even if I'm getting up when it's dark, it's usually light by the time I'm finished showering and getting ready.
Anyhoo, enough of my weirdness. So we got James on his way to GenCon in Milwaukee with Don (movie night Don, not DnD Don) and Norm--amazing how much money that's costing us. >_< When I decided to skip YaoiCon since Nix wasn't going and I couldn't afford it on my own, I didn't consider how much it was still going to cost to send James to this con, even despite the fact that he's sharing a ride and room with the guys. Ah well. I just wish I could have done the things I wanted to while he's gone--going out dancing, going to Wichita. I mean, I'll be doing stuff, like going to dinner with Dad Thursday and hanging out with Anj, Kelly, and Katherine Saturday to show them Gravitation, but that's more *normal* stuff, and I'd wanted to do something out of the ordinary, unique. Ah well again. I can try to plan something special later--I'd just wanted to do something when I had the rare opportunity to be on my own.
Legs are about the same as yesterday morning, but I'm dealing ok. Last evening they were really, really aggravated for some reason, and aching more than usual. :P By the time I got home from my lesson, they were really giving me grief, and the left almost wanted to lock up totally. Ended up on the couch, eventually falling asleep watching MST3K Shorts videos--which is entertaining, and let me rest my legs, but still not the way I wanted to spend the rest of the evening. Meh. Gonna still try to take it easy today so they don't get so bad again. I'm still going to talk to Michael this evening, but we're getting together a bunch earlier so I can get home and crash before wearing out. And after the past few days, I'm really starting to notice that I have no clue how to spell 'aggrevate' (aggravate? aggrivate?) properly.
The lesson went rather well last night, I have to admit, though. It was just me and that one kid again--and he still hasn't practiced much. ^^; I feel bad, being ahead of him this much. I feel like I'm always kind of taking the class over with my questions and whatnot, and getting more play-time. He kinda hangs back. *scratches head* Dunno what to do about it--I keep trying to give him his equal time with the instructor, and keep trying to help him when I can and be encouraging, as he kinda gets down on himself about not sounding so good. But I really do think I'm learning something--not just fingerings and chords, but how it all works together. It's making sense, which is scary somehow. ^^; Heh.
*checks the time* Okay, just because I'm the obsessed freak that I am, I have to note it's now been one week. And I did stop this morning at a Brueggers on the east side of town and have a bagel with chive cream cheese (which is what I'd stopped to get last Wednesday morning, which put me in the position to be on the road at just the right time to have it all happen with me instead of someone else >_<; ). Yeah, I did it mostly to have food to take my Naproxen with and to waste time before the Library opened to staff at 7:15...but I just also felt it was appropriate somehow, since last week's bagel sat in the car at the accident scene so long I never got to eat it.
Anyway, yeah, I'm being weird again. *flails* Awrighty then.
