Keep calm and carry on

My aunt was definitely talking today, talking quite a lot. Still very confused and out of it, with illness, medications, fever, electrolyte imbalance, etc. Has been asking/demanding to get up, to go home, to have us bring her diet colas, none of which we can do of course. Even heard her say to my cousin once "You're holding me here against my will!". Other times she asked my mother and I if she'd been tied down, or if we could remove her shoes and socks (which weren't on). And awareness has her, well, aware that she's in a hell of a lot of pain. So yeah. A long way to go.

Had to change how we were all visiting her, since too many people or people too often are agitating her a lot, so just a couple of us at a time, trying to be quiet and not bother her unless she's already awake, trying to give her periods alone to rest and calm. Her kidneys are even better than yesterday, but there's definitely pneumonia and her sodium blood levels are still out of whack. Be awhile before she's lucid enough for her surgeon and oncologist can discuss the metastasis with her.

Am cutting down the time Mom and I are up at the hospital after this to just the afternoons, since though serious, things aren't dire at this point and we're not in a 'vigil' situation. All of us family are really starting to grate against each other anyway, I think, we were especially on edge with each other today. Need more time for regular life, for a break away--and to give her more quiet time since we can only be in the room for short periods of time anyway. It's needed. Need to get my evenings back, Mom does as well. Be nice to do food at home again, too. And need a chance to get to the things that I've been putting off and letting slide (responding to comments ffffffff >_< ).

♥ and hugs to you all. You've been going above and beyond on being there and listening, and sending thoughts and wishes.