a beautiful gift

Oh my god. This. Is the most amazing, beautiful, gorgeous thing.

http://community.livejournal.com/samdean_otp/22383.html?thread=188783#t188783

Unfortunately can only be seen by members of the community, but I will relink/repimp when the author posts it to her own journal. I gave the prompt of Porcupine Tree's Collapse the Light Into Earth, which has for years been one of my absolute favorites of theirs (and of course PT has been for years one of my all-time favorite groups). It's an emotionally intense, meaningful song for me. And the comment fic is what maerhys wrote in response. It is...oh, it just blows me away, and I'm just all choked up and teary at it. It's like she was able to find the essence of the music and lyrics, and give that feeling and emotion to the fic, even in just a few words, while giving it an unexpected and bittersweet twist. And the bow on the present is that it ties in one of the AU concepts I utterly adore, of Sam finding a way to bring back Dean from hell.

Oh, this fandom. I just...I cannot express adequately my love for the people in it. ♥


Edit: And an older rec/to remember for myself:
http://britomart-is.livejournal.com/100146.html
Looks on Tempests by britomart_is, Sam/Dean, PG, 1035 words. A Sam'n'Dean when they're old fic, and it does it a BILLION times better in all ways than I did. Seriously. This one is just so perfectly them, I can't put it into words.

Extra edit: http://britomart-is.livejournal.com/122328.html
I think this author now owns my soul. The King of Imperfection Takes Back the Prince of Mistakes, Sam/Dean, NC17, 3600 words. The most utterly perfect fitting happy ever after for these guys, seriously. This author just writes them so utterly *them*. I swear. I don't know if I ever want to write again, when stuff out there is this perfect; I could never ever get it right like she does.

O_O

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Confessional_poetry

I've been falling in love with it, have been sort of fiddling with it for years in my own craptastic, highschoolish way, and I never even knew there was a specific term for it. Holy cats.

God, I wish I would have focused more on specialized English classes when I was in college. I sort of...sort of want to go back and do that. :x But I don't want to have to suffer through Linguistics hell like Anj did. And it's...not the best way to go for wanting a specific career at the end of it--unless you know what you want to use it for. And I don't. Except for the little voice that whispers "get an English degree, then go back for a Masters in creative writing like your brother's going except with a poetry emphasis"...except for again, lack of specific career at the end of it. And school again--debt, schoolwork/tests/papers (I've been done with that for 15 years now...), still no *real* job at the end (because you can't just say "I'm going to be a poet and publish" because you *can't count on that*). At least Dave's a lawyer in the meantime, and is *good* at the writing he's going and his MFA/writers residencies are going well, and he has this thing of maybe being a professor in creative writing at the end of it which is something real and attainable.

...how many weeks of multiple posts a day? Yeah, can we say 'too much time on one's hands' as well as bored and still pathetically jobless. Least I'm thinking/self-analyzing? >_>; Or at least I'm not just playing WoW all day?