I am...so cross today. Nothing big at all, just little things. Went to bed moody, woke up that way (like last night while reading I went to my old 'melancholy' iTunes folder and was literally emoing and wishing to be held--which yeah, WTF.) The continuing problems with that one student worker still makes me pissy, as does how it pertains to my ex-supervisor. The incompetent leading the incompetent. Spent time grousing about it at Kel earlier. Continuing problems with how the JavaReader upgrade is causing one section of our ILS acquisitions software to act stupidly is making me growl.
Bad day to have had coffee, I think. Other than the irritability, also am restless, distracted, edgy, agitated, almost inable to keep focus or concentration, plus my nervous habits are all running full blast. And I don't want to be here. Meh, wah wah wah. Also, think I'm going to smack my stupid head against the brick wall in here if I don't quit craving attention; it's silly, selfish, childish, and weak, honestly. I know some is normal, but lately it's been bad and constant--especially since I seem to want it without going to effort on my own part, which is incredibly lazy and again, selfish and childish.
ANYWAY. Nothing much else up. Played Akseru on Hellscream some yest., and it was actually pretty darned nice. Don's place for movie evening was horrid--I know he doesn't have AC and lives on the 3rd floor, but I wish I'd've realized he didn't have the windows open (we noticed as we left). I mean, come the fuck on, dude. WINDOWS. Box fans running are not enough. Swear it was twenty degrees warmer in his place than outside, plus vile humidity in both places. Though least the outside temperature wasn't as bad as it's going to be this week. I so despise summer (and where the hell are our thunderstorms or at least rain this year? ).
I wonder when my eval is. Had to turn in the e-profile end of May, thought I was due then by end of June? Maybe it's end of July. Hate waiting. Especially since I want to ask if my current boss would change policy on allowing headphone use, if all else goes well, use potential good ratings as leverage. I want to use my iPod again, so *very* badly. Especially on days/in moods like this.
[Ed: And a sucky raise for the year. Lovely.]
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