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Steel wool dreaming
Apr. 3rd, 2007 01:11 pmWas going to say 'at least the manic is fading', but as today goes on I don't think it really is. The giddy is, though, which is good, as I've been excrutiatingly annoying from it (least in my opinion). But still getting the mad tumble of thoughts, all these plot ideas (for fic I won't write) sparking--not to mention this feeling of wanting to flail in panic at how there's too damned much to do and not enough time to do it in, which I know is an overreaction. Though there are a lot of areas of pressure now, work starting to be much heavier due to the massive amounts of orders from the one librarian (grar) starting to come in; and even in the stupid game, where we want max level *now* and I just can't catch up to the person I'm working with even though I'm just going going going, and I want to stay ahead of the other guy because working with him was pissing me off. And of course trying to keep up with the normal day to day stuff, since unlike he who I always complain about, I don't just pretend it doesn't exist.
Yar, ok, enough of that. Don't wanna slip back into the growl or the emo just because I'm not wheeglee giddy. Anyway, been slipping off the coffee wagon again, can't seem to stay away from it. Doesn't help there's no middle ground--coffee, I'm zomgwiredkeyedup, or tea, I'm falling asleep all day (not good at work, yo). Would help if I could allow myself more than a few hours of sleep, but thanks to the manic re: paragraph one, it's not happening at the moment.
But! Let's have a fangirl moment. All hail the springkink community, I must say. I am, though perhaps I shouldn't be, enjoying it immensely. Yay that it's April! But today's has me absolutely obsessing again about wingfic and wingsexfic and *MAN* do I need to write myself a winged!Axel/Roxas fic sometime. Just no ideas how yet. And I think I need to come up with two, because there's real wings, and there's this mental image I have of him with tattooed wings, and gah, yeah. Like I said, obsessing. Also got my Kadaj fascination going again, which still boggles me--he's not my type of character at all, yet there was the addiction from the word go. Is it the mania? That way he has of moving, all strut and sway and energy and feralness?
Anyway. >_< End babble on that, or I'll have to start analyzing Axel, too, and I dun have time for that. Need to get back to work, just enjoying my supervisor being gone atm--he's taking a lot of vac time today through the next week-ish, and that makes me verra happy.
In closing, a tale of music fail: ok, so despite all the bunches of music I don't feel stupid for listening to, I'm obviously still goofy over MCR's Black Parade cd. And I keep finding myself doing the car dance when I catch Pink on the radio >_< ;;; Or Mika. And then there's my total surrender to fanning on the Jesse McCartney cd (not Roxas, not Roxas, not Roxas...), and I keep liking songs off the new Fall Out Boy cd (I know, what the hell). But now add on to that...Linkin Park's back. Oh god, I *know*. I am such a loser, but already I'm flailing that the full cd isn't due out until next month, and I've only heard the song just released like twice--yesterday--but I'm nuts on it. The sort of nuts where I drove around the block before stopping at the vet's so I could finish listening. I can't help it...always been a fan of their stuff, even if it's overplayed, and in every single preteen's fic and playing to every AMV. I know I have really broad musical interests, and I love a lot of really *decent* music, and I'm always exploring new genres and trying new groups and styles. But ffs...I also have a massive ton of wretched bad music taste to go along with all that. Total fail.
And my space bar is squeaking. Chirping. What the hell? Oh, that's grand. The other grand thing was getting hit by the allergy brick, O HAY THERE SPRING. Sniffly, sneezy, seriously omg wanting to rub steel wool on my face, nose, eyes, sinuses, what have you DX Least it's eased up now. Was nearly going to hit my head on the rough cement walls around here to get my mind off it.
Ahyes, I remember now. Posting and editing in this new interface makes my Netscape crash, which LJ insists is my problem not theirs. Neat! Good idea to have typed/copy/pasted from my email program, or I'd be doing the rant-whine thing even more than I'm already indulging in. ^^; ...I can really tell I don't post nearly as often as I used to. This is way too damned long.
Yar, ok, enough of that. Don't wanna slip back into the growl or the emo just because I'm not wheeglee giddy. Anyway, been slipping off the coffee wagon again, can't seem to stay away from it. Doesn't help there's no middle ground--coffee, I'm zomgwiredkeyedup, or tea, I'm falling asleep all day (not good at work, yo). Would help if I could allow myself more than a few hours of sleep, but thanks to the manic re: paragraph one, it's not happening at the moment.
But! Let's have a fangirl moment. All hail the springkink community, I must say. I am, though perhaps I shouldn't be, enjoying it immensely. Yay that it's April! But today's has me absolutely obsessing again about wingfic and wingsexfic and *MAN* do I need to write myself a winged!Axel/Roxas fic sometime. Just no ideas how yet. And I think I need to come up with two, because there's real wings, and there's this mental image I have of him with tattooed wings, and gah, yeah. Like I said, obsessing. Also got my Kadaj fascination going again, which still boggles me--he's not my type of character at all, yet there was the addiction from the word go. Is it the mania? That way he has of moving, all strut and sway and energy and feralness?
Anyway. >_< End babble on that, or I'll have to start analyzing Axel, too, and I dun have time for that. Need to get back to work, just enjoying my supervisor being gone atm--he's taking a lot of vac time today through the next week-ish, and that makes me verra happy.
In closing, a tale of music fail: ok, so despite all the bunches of music I don't feel stupid for listening to, I'm obviously still goofy over MCR's Black Parade cd. And I keep finding myself doing the car dance when I catch Pink on the radio >_< ;;; Or Mika. And then there's my total surrender to fanning on the Jesse McCartney cd (not Roxas, not Roxas, not Roxas...), and I keep liking songs off the new Fall Out Boy cd (I know, what the hell). But now add on to that...Linkin Park's back. Oh god, I *know*. I am such a loser, but already I'm flailing that the full cd isn't due out until next month, and I've only heard the song just released like twice--yesterday--but I'm nuts on it. The sort of nuts where I drove around the block before stopping at the vet's so I could finish listening. I can't help it...always been a fan of their stuff, even if it's overplayed, and in every single preteen's fic and playing to every AMV. I know I have really broad musical interests, and I love a lot of really *decent* music, and I'm always exploring new genres and trying new groups and styles. But ffs...I also have a massive ton of wretched bad music taste to go along with all that. Total fail.
And my space bar is squeaking. Chirping. What the hell? Oh, that's grand. The other grand thing was getting hit by the allergy brick, O HAY THERE SPRING. Sniffly, sneezy, seriously omg wanting to rub steel wool on my face, nose, eyes, sinuses, what have you DX Least it's eased up now. Was nearly going to hit my head on the rough cement walls around here to get my mind off it.
Ahyes, I remember now. Posting and editing in this new interface makes my Netscape crash, which LJ insists is my problem not theirs. Neat! Good idea to have typed/copy/pasted from my email program, or I'd be doing the rant-whine thing even more than I'm already indulging in. ^^; ...I can really tell I don't post nearly as often as I used to. This is way too damned long.
