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Moo. I am in a mood. A very off mood. Been so for several days now, feeling more upset/emo as time goes on. Such hate for the mood swings. This one has also managed to suck away whatever little success I was having with writing--the motivation and ability just kinda goes poof. Teh tired probably isn't helping. Think I dozed most of my first hour here :/ Then felt groggy-drunkish for a long time after, now just drained.
Raiding continues to be lackluster. Not sure why. We stall on things we shouldn't--and after times where we're tearing through stuff so quick, I don't understand why it takes twice as long with several times as much dying. Tho last night I know I was sucking bad. Normally I should be about 5th on the dmg meters, most of the time I was 10-15th. Pathetic. Didn't help that James out of the blue yelled at me for something TOTALLY FUCKING INANE just as we were starting, so I was absolutely thrown for a loop by that. And pissed. Rather ruined my attitude for the whole evening. What are we looking at now...more AQ tonight (plz let it go well...), BWL/AQ Sat and yay I can be there, MC Sunday perhaps. Anyway. Trivium.
gdi, my throat keeps hurting on and off for days now. So hard to tell if it's the outdoor allergies, or something from the construction here (I still smell paint/glue and such). So the feeling kinda ill all the time, yeah, also probably contributes to the funk.
Got to see the world boss Lord Kazzak last night--tho a horde group got him. Next time we try him I think we can get him, though--we just didn't know a good spot to make a base camp and start summoning from, so ran into aggro problems as he pathed. Learning experience, tho.
Do rather wish I would have tried for Otakon or AX this year--missing doing the con thing more than I expected. Still annoyed at myself for not trying to go to Yaoicon yet, I've only been wanting to for years. Just at minimal vacation time, and I keep using bits of it so I'm not accumulating more. (ironic that I feel so much like I want to leave early today, despite doing so a couple days ago. Stupid stupid git.)
Also...there is frighteningly little work for me to do today. At least I've got some authority record updating I can do. Could always go help Kel set up current periodicals on their new shelving omg teh fun. -___- So trying to avoid that. Just want work I can do while hiding in my cube. But with the way things are going, will probably need to volunteer to help her tomorrow, because I'll be totally out of shit to do by then. I fucking knew this would happen with all their outsourcing bullshit. I feel so useless.
Fanning still goes on somehow--Bleach music mainly. Life is Like a Boat ♥ Also that Gin song (Hyouri?), tho I don't want to like it -___- And the one Ishida song I'm forgetting the title to. Too bad I'm out on a public machine and not at my desk where my iPod is. An UraRen fic I read this am amused me far far far more than it should have, and also saw a really sweet NanaoShun (with hints of ShunUkiNanao)one. And wibbled muchly to see someone started up a RukiaOrihime community ♥ Would love to see some good fic of those two. RukiHime...their love is so OMG BUNNIES! ...ignore that. -__-
...why can I write so much about so little, and not do so on my fic ideas. Dork.
Raiding continues to be lackluster. Not sure why. We stall on things we shouldn't--and after times where we're tearing through stuff so quick, I don't understand why it takes twice as long with several times as much dying. Tho last night I know I was sucking bad. Normally I should be about 5th on the dmg meters, most of the time I was 10-15th. Pathetic. Didn't help that James out of the blue yelled at me for something TOTALLY FUCKING INANE just as we were starting, so I was absolutely thrown for a loop by that. And pissed. Rather ruined my attitude for the whole evening. What are we looking at now...more AQ tonight (plz let it go well...), BWL/AQ Sat and yay I can be there, MC Sunday perhaps. Anyway. Trivium.
gdi, my throat keeps hurting on and off for days now. So hard to tell if it's the outdoor allergies, or something from the construction here (I still smell paint/glue and such). So the feeling kinda ill all the time, yeah, also probably contributes to the funk.
Got to see the world boss Lord Kazzak last night--tho a horde group got him. Next time we try him I think we can get him, though--we just didn't know a good spot to make a base camp and start summoning from, so ran into aggro problems as he pathed. Learning experience, tho.
Do rather wish I would have tried for Otakon or AX this year--missing doing the con thing more than I expected. Still annoyed at myself for not trying to go to Yaoicon yet, I've only been wanting to for years. Just at minimal vacation time, and I keep using bits of it so I'm not accumulating more. (ironic that I feel so much like I want to leave early today, despite doing so a couple days ago. Stupid stupid git.)
Also...there is frighteningly little work for me to do today. At least I've got some authority record updating I can do. Could always go help Kel set up current periodicals on their new shelving omg teh fun. -___- So trying to avoid that. Just want work I can do while hiding in my cube. But with the way things are going, will probably need to volunteer to help her tomorrow, because I'll be totally out of shit to do by then. I fucking knew this would happen with all their outsourcing bullshit. I feel so useless.
Fanning still goes on somehow--Bleach music mainly. Life is Like a Boat ♥ Also that Gin song (Hyouri?), tho I don't want to like it -___- And the one Ishida song I'm forgetting the title to. Too bad I'm out on a public machine and not at my desk where my iPod is. An UraRen fic I read this am amused me far far far more than it should have, and also saw a really sweet NanaoShun (with hints of ShunUkiNanao)one. And wibbled muchly to see someone started up a RukiaOrihime community ♥ Would love to see some good fic of those two. RukiHime...their love is so OMG BUNNIES! ...ignore that. -__-
...why can I write so much about so little, and not do so on my fic ideas. Dork.