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damned odd freak-weirdo >_>
Sep. 13th, 2005 03:20 pmI swear, I'm still all a-tingle. <3 I'll be fine, and then I'll see someone else talking about it, or start commenting/emailing back and forth about it with someone, and I get all giddy all over again. So hope the others can get together Saturday evening so I can show them. Don't matter to me how late Anj gets back. I so want to surprise them with it.
Anyway. Other than that giddiness, been dragging around. Got hit hard with crack-WoW dreams bad, and beween about 2:30 and the time my alarm went off, I was waking up every few minutes. I haven't had dreams like those in ages, and never ones where I couldn't force myself fully out of them eventually. I swear even when I staggered out of bed I was still seeing it behind my eyes. Was the typical themes for any of my computer-related anxiety dreams, just with a new overlay.
Chat text was going by, too fast for me to read. And I was missing or not responding to private tells, and I was screwing up over and over. This time was set in the early stages of a Molten Core run, and other than the chat text mess, I had the feeling a couple of others from my guild alliance were laughing at me (not sure why I picked the couple of people in question either). I was nodding off while playing, so I wasn't keeping up with the group--and was laggy too. And whenever I'd catch up, over and over and over, I'd get knocked off the edge of a walkway into the lava and have to be resurrected constantly. And at the same time I was missing clicking on the accept rez buttons, and was frantically trying to keep myself from clicking to loot accidentally--and from clicking on the bind button when I did for some reason loot. I don't know what all else, it was really chaotic and muddled. Just this real panicky feeling. But yeah, the typical for these dreams--missing what people are trying to tell me, not responding when I should, making mistakes, not keeping up, screwing up and dying over and over and over.
Such hate for snapping awake and seeing the clock and seeing how little time had passed between each waking. But just weird that I couldn't pull myself fully awake, which is how it usually works to stop the cycle of these. And to be so aware both when in-dream and when snapping awake that it was a dream, and not be able to control it or stop it at all. I'd *know* there was no way I was signed in or online, since I was obviously asleep in bed. But unlike other times of these, still couldn't make it stop, despite all that.
So tired doesn't quite begin to describe it--couple hours Sunday night, a few hours last night, after messing with my sleep schedule this weekend...kinda leaving me a bit messed up.
And of course, still wondering at why I have dreams like this to begin with. I almost never ever have dreams I can remember--yet the last few years spawned AIM/computer and now WoW ones. It's just crack-weird.
Dunno, it's tempting to take off a bit early, but stuff to do, so I don't think I can afford to do that. But still. Would be so damned awesome to just sleep some. (And yes, later mess with patch and UI mods >_> But a good several hours of sleep first. Oh, I crave it.)
Anyway. Other than that giddiness, been dragging around. Got hit hard with crack-WoW dreams bad, and beween about 2:30 and the time my alarm went off, I was waking up every few minutes. I haven't had dreams like those in ages, and never ones where I couldn't force myself fully out of them eventually. I swear even when I staggered out of bed I was still seeing it behind my eyes. Was the typical themes for any of my computer-related anxiety dreams, just with a new overlay.
Chat text was going by, too fast for me to read. And I was missing or not responding to private tells, and I was screwing up over and over. This time was set in the early stages of a Molten Core run, and other than the chat text mess, I had the feeling a couple of others from my guild alliance were laughing at me (not sure why I picked the couple of people in question either). I was nodding off while playing, so I wasn't keeping up with the group--and was laggy too. And whenever I'd catch up, over and over and over, I'd get knocked off the edge of a walkway into the lava and have to be resurrected constantly. And at the same time I was missing clicking on the accept rez buttons, and was frantically trying to keep myself from clicking to loot accidentally--and from clicking on the bind button when I did for some reason loot. I don't know what all else, it was really chaotic and muddled. Just this real panicky feeling. But yeah, the typical for these dreams--missing what people are trying to tell me, not responding when I should, making mistakes, not keeping up, screwing up and dying over and over and over.
Such hate for snapping awake and seeing the clock and seeing how little time had passed between each waking. But just weird that I couldn't pull myself fully awake, which is how it usually works to stop the cycle of these. And to be so aware both when in-dream and when snapping awake that it was a dream, and not be able to control it or stop it at all. I'd *know* there was no way I was signed in or online, since I was obviously asleep in bed. But unlike other times of these, still couldn't make it stop, despite all that.
So tired doesn't quite begin to describe it--couple hours Sunday night, a few hours last night, after messing with my sleep schedule this weekend...kinda leaving me a bit messed up.
And of course, still wondering at why I have dreams like this to begin with. I almost never ever have dreams I can remember--yet the last few years spawned AIM/computer and now WoW ones. It's just crack-weird.
Dunno, it's tempting to take off a bit early, but stuff to do, so I don't think I can afford to do that. But still. Would be so damned awesome to just sleep some. (And yes, later mess with patch and UI mods >_> But a good several hours of sleep first. Oh, I crave it.)