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All downhill from here
Aug. 18th, 2004 11:15 amYay, three of four interviews done. And the one on Friday is one I don't care about (I'm giving them a chance, really, truly--just their attitude on the phone was a bit of a flag...), so I don't plan on investing any emotional energy on stressing. Still going oogh from the three-cookie breakfast, and am resisting the de-stressing urge to go snack on something more.
But now am to the part of the day where I can just do work in my cubicle, listen to music stuffs, and think about a day off tomorrow. <3<3 Am definitely doing the zoo, and dinner out with Dad and Dave (and James natch, eh)--dunno what else. Fontenelle Forest could be neat, too, if I get out and about early enough. Just so long as I am out and about, and not at work, and not at home sleeping. <3
Was in a Champloo mood last night, but ended up just catching up on downloading and burning instead--I always space off downloading, and then I get jumpy when I realize I've only got a few gigs of hard drive space left, which makes me flail and drag out the CD-ROMs... Maybe I'll watch something tonight. I've been feeling the inner-gnawings to watch FMA, Champloo, Kyou Kara Mao, and the live action Sailor Moon the most. But the to watch list still includes PoT catch up (including finishing the 2nd musical ._.;; ), Get Backers, Peace Maker Kurogane, Samurai Deeper Kyo, Scryed, and Tenjou Tenge. ...and gads, maybe *maybe* that Bobobobobo-thingy. I'm still traumatized from that--Koyasu, you'll do *anything* for money... :x And who knows what else--I've got a freaking ton of anime burn CDs, years worth, that either I've saved or people have given to me. Years. Uwah. D:
... Though maybe I should note that...I dunno...but I'm thinking very, very, very seriously about dropping the second year Japanese class. I worry if I don't take it now, I'll never get back to it again, but I really...I don't think I want to any more. I want to know the information, I really so want to read and hear and even speak, but at the moment I don't want to do all the work of *learning* the information. My enthusiasm and motivation is just in the crapper for it, and I just feel this dread at having to do it. The thought of basically giving my life up to studying again is simply leaving me cold. I think only stubbornness and not knowing *why* I want to stop (not to mention the feeling of considering myself a quitter if I don't keep taking it like I planned) has kept me from dropping it already. I know I'm capable of learning it, and getting a good grade. But...I want to watch anime, I want to paint and do art things, I want to write poetry (and maybe prose/ficcage if inspiration would just come back again), I want to read manga, I maybe want to tinker with my guitar again, I want to go visiting people without having to work around the semesters. I guess...I know taking the class was made one of my career development goals on my last evaluation, so I guess I'd just need to find out if it will hurt me at work to drop it--if not, perhaps I will. For all my big talk and plans and such, I think my focus has shifted, and I need to worry about other things for a while. Maybe I'll be able to continue language learning at a later time when I'm in a better mindset for it, even if it's not necessarily through UNO.
Dunno...maybe it's a touch that I feel change breathing down my neck, and it makes me feel the urge to recharge and rebuild myself some, to try to be stronger and ready to face it, rather than so weak and drained and brittle as I have been at times. Hard to say. >_>;; Or maybe I'm just a lazy bastard that is giving in to the want to goof off and do foolish, simple things. ._.;; Who knows.
I finally have my Bomb A Head fix. YES. (Listened to it repeatedly on the drive in, Nix--amazing how much faster traffic seems to flow when grooving to something like that.) But for the moment I'm finally testing out the move 'worlds of the mind' CD I picked up at AX. move is a good group--worth checking out. A bit pop, but not bad, good energy, and with a touch of j-rap--for some reason they remind me of Two-Mix, but it's not nearly so stylized or synthy of music. Though it is very dance in a way, and they seem to do a lot of remixes of their songs.
Wow, I waste work time... ._.
But now am to the part of the day where I can just do work in my cubicle, listen to music stuffs, and think about a day off tomorrow. <3<3 Am definitely doing the zoo, and dinner out with Dad and Dave (and James natch, eh)--dunno what else. Fontenelle Forest could be neat, too, if I get out and about early enough. Just so long as I am out and about, and not at work, and not at home sleeping. <3
Was in a Champloo mood last night, but ended up just catching up on downloading and burning instead--I always space off downloading, and then I get jumpy when I realize I've only got a few gigs of hard drive space left, which makes me flail and drag out the CD-ROMs... Maybe I'll watch something tonight. I've been feeling the inner-gnawings to watch FMA, Champloo, Kyou Kara Mao, and the live action Sailor Moon the most. But the to watch list still includes PoT catch up (including finishing the 2nd musical ._.;; ), Get Backers, Peace Maker Kurogane, Samurai Deeper Kyo, Scryed, and Tenjou Tenge. ...and gads, maybe *maybe* that Bobobobobo-thingy. I'm still traumatized from that--Koyasu, you'll do *anything* for money... :x And who knows what else--I've got a freaking ton of anime burn CDs, years worth, that either I've saved or people have given to me. Years. Uwah. D:
... Though maybe I should note that...I dunno...but I'm thinking very, very, very seriously about dropping the second year Japanese class. I worry if I don't take it now, I'll never get back to it again, but I really...I don't think I want to any more. I want to know the information, I really so want to read and hear and even speak, but at the moment I don't want to do all the work of *learning* the information. My enthusiasm and motivation is just in the crapper for it, and I just feel this dread at having to do it. The thought of basically giving my life up to studying again is simply leaving me cold. I think only stubbornness and not knowing *why* I want to stop (not to mention the feeling of considering myself a quitter if I don't keep taking it like I planned) has kept me from dropping it already. I know I'm capable of learning it, and getting a good grade. But...I want to watch anime, I want to paint and do art things, I want to write poetry (and maybe prose/ficcage if inspiration would just come back again), I want to read manga, I maybe want to tinker with my guitar again, I want to go visiting people without having to work around the semesters. I guess...I know taking the class was made one of my career development goals on my last evaluation, so I guess I'd just need to find out if it will hurt me at work to drop it--if not, perhaps I will. For all my big talk and plans and such, I think my focus has shifted, and I need to worry about other things for a while. Maybe I'll be able to continue language learning at a later time when I'm in a better mindset for it, even if it's not necessarily through UNO.
Dunno...maybe it's a touch that I feel change breathing down my neck, and it makes me feel the urge to recharge and rebuild myself some, to try to be stronger and ready to face it, rather than so weak and drained and brittle as I have been at times. Hard to say. >_>;; Or maybe I'm just a lazy bastard that is giving in to the want to goof off and do foolish, simple things. ._.;; Who knows.
I finally have my Bomb A Head fix. YES. (Listened to it repeatedly on the drive in, Nix--amazing how much faster traffic seems to flow when grooving to something like that.) But for the moment I'm finally testing out the move 'worlds of the mind' CD I picked up at AX. move is a good group--worth checking out. A bit pop, but not bad, good energy, and with a touch of j-rap--for some reason they remind me of Two-Mix, but it's not nearly so stylized or synthy of music. Though it is very dance in a way, and they seem to do a lot of remixes of their songs.
Wow, I waste work time... ._.
