And the word for today is...

bleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeh.

(no subject)

Dammit. *Dammit*. Why do I do that? Why do I try to write? Why do I even *attempt* anything more than a drabble? I've wasted hours at work, *hours*, and at least half of its totally wrong and has to be totally trashed. Now my head's stuck in two places, and it's not really fully in either--it always is like that if I don't finish something and/or it doesn't go right--and it's taking forever for my mind to snap back to the *here*. Like being light-headed, dizzy. I've been so damned *useless* today, an absolute waste of time and space, and it's my own damned fault. Need to hit my head on something hard, make myself function and focus on the real. Stupid, stupid *idiot*.