Feeling like a mass of nerves, stress, anxiety, worry, agitation, and panic. Lovely. Can't control my own life, can't seem to do anything for anyone else. Been a constant fight today to keep focused on work...little crap keeps getting me up and distracted, am fussing with many things at once. Nearly went out in the hall during class to either introduce hand or fist to the wall. Even was difficult to keep from doing such in the classroom itself. Hooray for what little restraint and self-consciousness I do have. Going to be absofreaking slammed by homework the next few days. And did find out the midterm should be next Wednesday or Thursday. Lovely on that, too. Though did know it was coming soon. I almost wish it was this week, just so I could have it out of the way.
Other than homework, much to arrange before Friday. Already making lists in my head, need to make lists on paper. But criminy, it's just one weekend. Probably wouldn't seem like so much to put together if I wasn't feeling like buckling under today. ...and naturally going into freak-out mood is when I remember who I still haven't sent Christmas gifts to (including my own mother, godfsckingargh... ><) and who I haven't sent thank yous to (including my aunt, who...or is it whom...I also haven't sent a get well card to or called or visited for ages, and yes I mean the one going through chemo). So help me, I suck at life. Damned incompetent.
Will not list the other things I am not doing that I should. Just the same old.
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