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I really, really shouldn't be feeling so down/out of sorts about losing a dj auction. It's *just* a doujinshi. And I'm better off not having to spend the money on it, considering how damned much I'm going to be paying out on the other auctions I've done the past few days. Shipping and fees and such...adds up, of course. So I shouldn't be feeling so damned disappointed over such a little thing.

Such a pretty, sweet looking, hits my weakness, made me fall in love with it the moment I saw the URL little thing.

*sighs, slumps, thunks head on desk* God, I wanted it. Damned MomoKai doujin. Wanted. So much. Saved the image since it was so very pretty. But still. Wanted.

*mopes, pines, is a pathetic excuse for a human being*

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Tired, excruciatingly bored despite work being busy (how can one be both at once?), off mood. Also can't stand any of the music on my iPod today. Odd. (Also odd that I looked at the comics Dave passed along from Mom last night and set them aside...they just were all so blah for some reason. Not like me to do such...) V. restless. And have an absolute ton of homework this evening (how do people do this class along with other classes?). Don't think someone is thrilled that I won't be going to talk to Michael, but don't care. Homework comes first. (ha, so does work--just waiting for printer to finish). Unfortunate that am still in a fic-reading mood (and have discovered the Jumpy Boys site, too), but can't indulge.

Am missing people, feeling kind of isolated. Hugs and hi...and am sending thoughts to those going through various sorts of difficult times. Wish I could do/say more. I really understand, have been there... Regretting being so absent so much again. Also have stuff am stewing about, just wish I had the time to ramble on about it at someone. Ah, must fly, as usual.