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Oct. 14th, 2003
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Oct. 14th, 2003 07:15 pmyeah, I need to shut up, and badly, but this is my vent space. I don't know why, it just is. apologies for the severe amount of negativity of late.
got a call from Mom, passing on family news. I have an aunt, on Dad's side of the family (you know, the side I actually care about)--Dad's younger sister, whom I'd consider my favorite aunt, the one I'm closest to, who I look up to the most. Am told that preliminary results indicate her cancer is back, after appearing beaten for several years. They need to do biopsies and whatnot to find out specific details, but...what she had the first go 'round was an advanced form of a nasty ovarian cancer. so. if it is back for sure, it could be really, really bad. Dad's taking it rough, as it just hasn't been that long since Grandma died, and they're still trying to deal with the house and stuff and finances, and now this.
So, yeah, I know--things are bad for everyone...these seem to be very trying times, and everyone is struggling in some way. so forgive me always whining and bitching. it just feels bad, and though I do get through it, it just sucks in the process. And the phrase 'that which does not kill me makes me stronger' is wrong--because I'm still just as weak and waily after each particular thing I encounter. I never seem to get grit like other people I know.
gotta do homework, need to call Dad. So, anyway.
got a call from Mom, passing on family news. I have an aunt, on Dad's side of the family (you know, the side I actually care about)--Dad's younger sister, whom I'd consider my favorite aunt, the one I'm closest to, who I look up to the most. Am told that preliminary results indicate her cancer is back, after appearing beaten for several years. They need to do biopsies and whatnot to find out specific details, but...what she had the first go 'round was an advanced form of a nasty ovarian cancer. so. if it is back for sure, it could be really, really bad. Dad's taking it rough, as it just hasn't been that long since Grandma died, and they're still trying to deal with the house and stuff and finances, and now this.
So, yeah, I know--things are bad for everyone...these seem to be very trying times, and everyone is struggling in some way. so forgive me always whining and bitching. it just feels bad, and though I do get through it, it just sucks in the process. And the phrase 'that which does not kill me makes me stronger' is wrong--because I'm still just as weak and waily after each particular thing I encounter. I never seem to get grit like other people I know.
gotta do homework, need to call Dad. So, anyway.