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sanjuu, or, walking in thunder
Aug. 19th, 2003 08:30 amHad some rather nice storms move through last night--lots of thunder and lightning, wind, a bit of rain. Dropped the temperature almost twenty-five degrees in less than two hours. And there's still some storms hanging around this morning. I heard low thunder growling as I started to walk this am, but decided to keep going, anyway. After all, I think it's relatively safe in suburbia, with all the houses and trees and the occasional taller building or tower to draw lightning. But it made for an interesting walk, with splashes of electric-white lightning arcing and sparking over a greyed-black predawn sky, with almost drowsy, sluggish sounding thunder echoing out over the distance. Very, very cool.
It left me rather introspective, which I seem to be when out walking like that, anyway. Spent a lot of time thinking about my parents at my age. Mom, particularly, I can remember very much about what was going on in 1980, when she was the same age as I am now. So much was going on back then for our family, so many huge, huge changes happening--and it was the beginning of a lot more very impacting events for us, the beginning of a lot of endings. It's very odd to think about how young I feel in comparison, how like a kid, how unable I'd be to handle all she did...and just wonder how in the hell she did it all.
Anyway, like I said, was a very introspective dawn. Was a bit short of a walk compared to what I've been doing, as I got a late start due to starting a quick software update on my computer before I left. But that was ok, as it started sprinkling while I was out, then raining harder by the time I was getting back. Not that I mind...I like being in the rain, actually.
So...now I'm here at work. I have Docs Desk, a staff picnic-luncheon, a staff meeting. Not going to get a lot done, but was planning a goof off day anyway, just because. Because it's like a gift to myself, you know? Trouble is, naturally today's the day we get slammed with every damned thing. Lovely. So I can't really goof off, can I? That plan's ruined. :p And now I get to feel that nice pre-long-weekend, gotta-get-everything-done overwhelmed feeling. I hate my job. :p I wonder if I'll still not be motivated, or if guilt and an overdeveloped work ethic/sense of responsibility will kick me in gear. Hmf.
Definitely doing Sushi Ichiban with Anj, Kelly, and James tonight (will have spent a lot of time with them this week, considering we did AzuDai watching last night, along with an ice cream trip ^^ ). That'll rock. Got some Godiva cookies from Lori, a little bit of AI cash from Kel, and a little squishy-jingly cat plushy from Anj. :D Heh, and Ma's already up to two e-cards.
What's that quote I heard on the radio on the drive in...? "I want something good to die for...to make it beautiful to live".
It left me rather introspective, which I seem to be when out walking like that, anyway. Spent a lot of time thinking about my parents at my age. Mom, particularly, I can remember very much about what was going on in 1980, when she was the same age as I am now. So much was going on back then for our family, so many huge, huge changes happening--and it was the beginning of a lot more very impacting events for us, the beginning of a lot of endings. It's very odd to think about how young I feel in comparison, how like a kid, how unable I'd be to handle all she did...and just wonder how in the hell she did it all.
Anyway, like I said, was a very introspective dawn. Was a bit short of a walk compared to what I've been doing, as I got a late start due to starting a quick software update on my computer before I left. But that was ok, as it started sprinkling while I was out, then raining harder by the time I was getting back. Not that I mind...I like being in the rain, actually.
So...now I'm here at work. I have Docs Desk, a staff picnic-luncheon, a staff meeting. Not going to get a lot done, but was planning a goof off day anyway, just because. Because it's like a gift to myself, you know? Trouble is, naturally today's the day we get slammed with every damned thing. Lovely. So I can't really goof off, can I? That plan's ruined. :p And now I get to feel that nice pre-long-weekend, gotta-get-everything-done overwhelmed feeling. I hate my job. :p I wonder if I'll still not be motivated, or if guilt and an overdeveloped work ethic/sense of responsibility will kick me in gear. Hmf.
Definitely doing Sushi Ichiban with Anj, Kelly, and James tonight (will have spent a lot of time with them this week, considering we did AzuDai watching last night, along with an ice cream trip ^^ ). That'll rock. Got some Godiva cookies from Lori, a little bit of AI cash from Kel, and a little squishy-jingly cat plushy from Anj. :D Heh, and Ma's already up to two e-cards.
What's that quote I heard on the radio on the drive in...? "I want something good to die for...to make it beautiful to live".
