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More apologies...
Jan. 21st, 2003 12:58 pmI've come to feel I've said too much here recently. I think I've gone beyond the point of open and honest or venting to just revealing too much--a WTMI (way too much information) sort of thing. And I'm sorry...at the time I didn't consider that it might make anyone uncomfortable, and I really, truly wasn't out to make anyone worry about me.
I guess it's just...I've been carrying a lot of anger and other negative emotions around for a long time, and sometimes, like recently, that anger and emotion flares up. Sometimes it gets directed at others, a lot of times it gets directed at me--it's especially easy to direct anger at myself. And that sort of thinking/talking/acting is a result.
I just know how bad it looks--melodramatic at best and psychotic at worst. And just...too much, in general. I tend to curb that, usually, I just let more of it out and made it more visible this time. I really shouldn't have. For someone who worries as much as I do what others think about me, and worries about stretching the bonds of friendship too far, I really let too much of the negative stuff show. I am sorry about that.
I guess it's just...I've been carrying a lot of anger and other negative emotions around for a long time, and sometimes, like recently, that anger and emotion flares up. Sometimes it gets directed at others, a lot of times it gets directed at me--it's especially easy to direct anger at myself. And that sort of thinking/talking/acting is a result.
I just know how bad it looks--melodramatic at best and psychotic at worst. And just...too much, in general. I tend to curb that, usually, I just let more of it out and made it more visible this time. I really shouldn't have. For someone who worries as much as I do what others think about me, and worries about stretching the bonds of friendship too far, I really let too much of the negative stuff show. I am sorry about that.
