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whitereflection ([personal profile] whitereflection) wrote2010-05-02 02:02 am

drain bamage

It's funny that the thing I was looking forward to doing most for [livejournal.com profile] spnland was writing, and ironically, what's the thing I haven't been able to do almost at all since it started? Yeah. Started out okay, but ever since.... Nearly nothing. Wouldn't even call it being blocked or locked up, because that implies there's something there to block or lock up. There's just really nothing in my head, writing-wise. And I'm gonna just laugh at myself for the whole "I wanna be a poet" thing, because yeah. To write as a career, you have to be able to, you know.... There's just no words, not for fan stuff, not for original projects.

Naturally, I actually had one idea for this one challenge due tomorrow (love letter from one character to another), and I was like yay and worked on it, and then realized the rules state it's got to be major, named characters and what I had won't work, not a bit. Sooo yeah. Awesomes. Least there's games there, because that's the only stuff I seem to be able to accomplish. That and voting on things.

I guess I could understand if I were just having trouble with character-focused things, because I'm a pretty lousy fan that just isn't as into secondary characters all that much, and some I'm outright *blah* on. I mean, yeah, I like Bobby and some others, but really if it isn't Sam or Dean (or okay, maybe the Impala), I just don't get too motivated. But there's been plenty of general writing challenges that don't demand certain characters, in which I could have written with Sam and Dean. Yet still no inspiration or success at motivating myself.

Then lately when I see everyone talking about their big bang projects, I get the little thought in my head of "Next year I'll try that!". Hey, self? Yeah. This is me pointing and laughing at you. LoooooooooOOOOOOOoooooooool. Pull the other one, it's got bells on. Dumbass.


At least I can accomplish things in WoW (Nin to 72, Sampala to 17), that's worth something right? Right? Yeah, didn't think so. :|

[identity profile] dcillusioned.livejournal.com 2010-05-02 07:26 am (UTC)(link)
Eh, don't worry about it. You'll get there. And if it makes you feel any better I failed to meet the bigbang. =( Lost the first draft in a hard drive crash. But I rewrote it in less than a month and I managed to almost meet the word limit but it wasn't finished and I didn't want to give it a crappy ending. So, i fail. But hey, it will be there next year, right?

[identity profile] whitereflection.livejournal.com 2010-05-02 03:47 pm (UTC)(link)
Aww, I just think of added up how incredibly much writing that would have been for you total. So even if you didn't technically finish, you at least know you're capable of blowing away that world count. ♥ And you're definitely right--it'll be there next year. Or hey, if you just want to get the story out separate of the big bang community, you could always do that, too. People will enjoy reading it just as much! Still think you should get a pat on the back because it wasn't you that caused not finishing, but an inanimate object you couldn't control.