There are some times I think I am alive
OMG WAT IS THIS POST BUTTON DO
:| Okay yeah, so it is pretty obvious that I am a person that is great at posting on work time, but can't be fucked to use my own precious time to do so. Lazy suck slacker is lazy.
Anyway, hefty nutshell:
1. Work. It goes. I am glad for the money and am already signed up for benefits, and for some reason I seem to do well--getting bonus-earning QAs, got nominated for rookie employee of the month. However...this job is ass. ASS. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAASS. I thought outbound calling that did not involve selling only verifying/gathering information would be better, but I was very wrong. I have been called a hemmoroid on humanity, just last week I had some guy start up "Hey you idiot, you RETARD" when I hung up on him. Let me say thins--small business owners may be cool people, but in my experience they are absolute assholes. I seriously am making a mental note of people that treat me like shit, and plan on not patronizing them as a customer (sure most I'll never see, but there are some that are national chains). If I ever, ever, ever run a business, my first and most important rule will be BE POLITE AND CIVIL TO EVERYONE; NEVER BE THE FIRST ONE TO BE THE ASSHOLE. The person you ream on the phone can also be potential customer that turns into never customer. I understand there are a lot of scammers and people that are out to take advantage--but you don't protect yourself from that by being the first to be the prick.
Also, people in business need to realize that do not call lists DO NOT function for businesses like they do for private homes. From the National Do Not Call Registry Q&A: "The National Do Not Call Registry is only for personal phone numbers. Business-to-business calls and faxes are not covered by the National Do Not Call Registry." I'm so sick of getting reamed when calling businesses about them being on the do not call list. People need to realize this is not a fucking magic wand--again, it's small business owners that seem to think they can be a business but act like they're still just Joe Private Citizen at home. And also also, I love people that snark 'put me on your do not call list' and bang hang up. Guess what, that doesn't work. Because it is a business to business call, my company does not make it so we can click magic button and remove that business from our database--if they want to be removed, they have to contact the department in our company that has the database permissions to do that. Not us plebian teleresearch shmoes who are given no access at all. Just hang up, and they are ensuring they will get called again in the future. Not like we don't have email/website/phone/mail for them to contact the department that changes the database (which yes, actually does protect the business too, as it prevents random employee, staff member, co owner from taking a business off the list--important since they're free listings and are used by things like Yahoo Yellow Pages and Onstar, just to name a couple).
Wow, okay, rant off. Suffice to say, hate. And the work is utterly boring, too, and the time goes horrid slow. Just gotta love a job that at times makes me feel sick dreading going in and dealing with it, and while I'm getting more used to it did at times have passing thoughts of 'gee if i weren't alive i wouldn't have to do that work wah emo blah blah'. And though it feels like I'm not being a grown-up, am still only at 30 hours a week. But honest to god, I could not do more without quitting or hurting/offing myself. Can barely take the work as it is (at least I like the company, the supervisors, and my coworkers). It's also the nail on the head for my social skills--have become entirely a hermit. After all day on phones, I avoid the phone almost entirely at home, even though I should say, call Dad once in a while. And still can't bring myself to go back to IMs. I may read LJ but never post, almost never comment, almost never reply, etc etc.
2. Game. WoW is WoW. We are muddling our way through the new Ulduar instance. I am daily questing myself to death, but what the hey, new mounts and pets and money for reward. Have gone through major guild changes--asshole officer finally stepped down, but only because he didn't want to deal with 'our bullshit' anymore (oh how that makes me lol). The general raid force gave him so many accolades it makes me barf to this day, as they just don't *know* how he was guilty of the things they hate most--going unenchanted, balking at using consumables, refusing to use the appropriate UI mods, not doing anything to improve his utterly shit healing. I wish I could publicly expose the shit he was, but it is not worth it now. Resigned as sub-officer before all this, and allegedly was going to be brought back on, but they screwed up and offered the task I would do to someone else, and offered me the task I didn't want to do. But eh, in a way it is ok just being plain old raider. Though I still miss the extra chat channel and TS channel, as there's much more socialization there than in the basic guild chat or basic TS channels. And a close ingame buddy left to go to another server, which bummed me out a lot. Left me thinking very much about leaving for another guild, but for now I'm hanging in there--don't want to leave those I am friendly with, including real-life friend and long distance real-life friend, just because of one-two people and some leadership doofusness. Maybe stuff can still be changed. Though last week asshole ex-officer was fucking with me some, but I note this week he and his sweetie are being civil if not friendly, and maybe they got scolded for the screwing around with behavior. We shall see. It happens again, and friends or no I will go--have another guild in mind, so don't feel as trapped :p
3. Family. Home is okay, and seriously a day doesn't pass that I don't think about how awesome it is that Mom's living here. She helps so much in so many ways, not the least of which is the 'roommate' feel I absolutely need for some reason, that leaves things feeling wrong when it's just James and me. Maybe because she actually shares the load, and it doesn't feel like it's me running the entire household. And I will say that the shorter work schedule plus Mom sharing household running tasks that I don't feel near the resentment I used to for the usual him going to work then coming home and doing nothing ever. Stuff does feel more balanced.
Stuff has been tough on mom though, because of my grandmother/her mother. Mom already was over at the assisted living facility most days, which for being 'one of the good ones' in town is holy fuck expensive and barely provides care (imo). There is so much that Mom or one of my aunts has to do, supplies they have to provide, and so much time they have to spend up there. But Grandma's 86, and has rapidly worsening congestive heart failure, has been having increased frequency of ministrokes that at times hampers if not outright interferes with her speech, and recently had a bout of pneumonia out of the blue. Sounds like they're going to be moving her to the hospice area, as various systems are starting to act like they're gradually shutting down. And she may be very old, and everyone does have their time, and Grandma may have not been the best person (and certainly has been *very* difficult these past months, and have treated those who care for her poorly), but it is still rough on Mom and her sisters/brothers.
Anyway, other than that, Mom's really turned the backyard into a bird haven, all sorts of feeders. And the cats are doing quite well, though Bebop who's in at the vet for teeth cleaning today might not think so. Crystal the incredibly amazingly old cat is still hanging in there, though Mom puts in an amazing amount of care for Crystal's feeding and grooming, since she's sort of like my grandmother and just can't do it for herself anymore and mostly just wants to sleep all the time (Mom's favorite style of nursing back when was gerontology and the nursing homes, and once upon a time started to get her masters in gerontology, does it show much?).
4. Music. I feel really out of the loop on this. There's nothing that's really spazzing me out lately, though I did buy re-released Porcupine Tree albums a few weeks ago, and the new Steven Wilson and new Blue October stuff. There's some singles on radio play that catch my attention (Dave Matthews' Funny The Way It Is, Hollywood Undead's Young, Depesche Mode's Wrong), but eh. Though I thought I heard mention of a new Linkin Park one, and yes, I am that sad/pathetic. I am wishing it were end of June so I could have the new VNV Nation album, oh how I wish.
5. Fandoms. What are these things I do not know. Seriously, why doesn't some anime or video game grab me these days? I sort of miss that feeling, especially since I honestly do want to read fic, but don't have something to read about. And I want new icons, but my usual icon communities just don't have much tripping my trigger these days, and I've got nothing I'm fanning over to add to my userpics. Bleh.
6. There is no rule number 6.
7. Tbh, you know what really rocks my world right now? Webcomics. Yaaay webcomics. And web graphic novels. And what have you. Overcompensating/Wigu, MSPaint Adventures, Horribleville (ended D:)/Gun Show, Reprographics, Octopus Pie, Three Panel Soul, Hijinx Ensue, QC, Pictures for Sad Children, Softer World, Hark A Vagrant, Templar Az, Wasted Talent, Blip/Hiro, Blank It/Grinders, XKCD, Bunny, PA, Two Lumps, Mows, Cat and Girl, Dark Legacy, Awkward Zombie, LFG, PVP, Dinosaur Comics, Allan, Id, Rock Paper Cynic, Jefbot, Bear Nuts, Explodingdog/Dog Hates ME, GGGuys, Hockey Zombie, Nerf This, Shrub Monkies, Girls With Slingshots, Garfield minus Garfield, Raymondo Person, idgi, Achewood, Console Hopping, Biff, DAR, Platinum Grit, Noob Comic, My Stupid Life, Looks Like Rain/Failure to Comply, Manic Graffiti, Wondermark, Slackerz, Anders Loves Maria, even still Flintlocke VS the Horde and VGCats. Still even check in on Rob and Elliot, wish Beaver and Steve would return, wait for more Butternut Squash (though I need to catch up on Kukuburi. Hm, should catch up on Toothpaste for Dinner and the Abominable Charles Christopher. I think webcomics = prozac (that and that goddanged cheezburger site, why can't I quit that :| )
You know, I sort of become blah on wanting to go to Blizzcon, and what's the point of going to anime cons if you're not fanning on anime--but my next con trip might be one of the webcomics/comics ones. Especially if they do NEWW again. Wanted to go to that so badly. Also there is still http://tjandamal.com/. Can't ever seem to get one of the preview booklets, but getting a shirt. Still looking forward to that glorious someday when it is complete ♥
Right, couple months = monster post. Let's see if I can do better from now on.hahahaha as if
:| Okay yeah, so it is pretty obvious that I am a person that is great at posting on work time, but can't be fucked to use my own precious time to do so. Lazy suck slacker is lazy.
Anyway, hefty nutshell:
1. Work. It goes. I am glad for the money and am already signed up for benefits, and for some reason I seem to do well--getting bonus-earning QAs, got nominated for rookie employee of the month. However...this job is ass. ASS. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAASS. I thought outbound calling that did not involve selling only verifying/gathering information would be better, but I was very wrong. I have been called a hemmoroid on humanity, just last week I had some guy start up "Hey you idiot, you RETARD" when I hung up on him. Let me say thins--small business owners may be cool people, but in my experience they are absolute assholes. I seriously am making a mental note of people that treat me like shit, and plan on not patronizing them as a customer (sure most I'll never see, but there are some that are national chains). If I ever, ever, ever run a business, my first and most important rule will be BE POLITE AND CIVIL TO EVERYONE; NEVER BE THE FIRST ONE TO BE THE ASSHOLE. The person you ream on the phone can also be potential customer that turns into never customer. I understand there are a lot of scammers and people that are out to take advantage--but you don't protect yourself from that by being the first to be the prick.
Also, people in business need to realize that do not call lists DO NOT function for businesses like they do for private homes. From the National Do Not Call Registry Q&A: "The National Do Not Call Registry is only for personal phone numbers. Business-to-business calls and faxes are not covered by the National Do Not Call Registry." I'm so sick of getting reamed when calling businesses about them being on the do not call list. People need to realize this is not a fucking magic wand--again, it's small business owners that seem to think they can be a business but act like they're still just Joe Private Citizen at home. And also also, I love people that snark 'put me on your do not call list' and bang hang up. Guess what, that doesn't work. Because it is a business to business call, my company does not make it so we can click magic button and remove that business from our database--if they want to be removed, they have to contact the department in our company that has the database permissions to do that. Not us plebian teleresearch shmoes who are given no access at all. Just hang up, and they are ensuring they will get called again in the future. Not like we don't have email/website/phone/mail for them to contact the department that changes the database (which yes, actually does protect the business too, as it prevents random employee, staff member, co owner from taking a business off the list--important since they're free listings and are used by things like Yahoo Yellow Pages and Onstar, just to name a couple).
Wow, okay, rant off. Suffice to say, hate. And the work is utterly boring, too, and the time goes horrid slow. Just gotta love a job that at times makes me feel sick dreading going in and dealing with it, and while I'm getting more used to it did at times have passing thoughts of 'gee if i weren't alive i wouldn't have to do that work wah emo blah blah'. And though it feels like I'm not being a grown-up, am still only at 30 hours a week. But honest to god, I could not do more without quitting or hurting/offing myself. Can barely take the work as it is (at least I like the company, the supervisors, and my coworkers). It's also the nail on the head for my social skills--have become entirely a hermit. After all day on phones, I avoid the phone almost entirely at home, even though I should say, call Dad once in a while. And still can't bring myself to go back to IMs. I may read LJ but never post, almost never comment, almost never reply, etc etc.
2. Game. WoW is WoW. We are muddling our way through the new Ulduar instance. I am daily questing myself to death, but what the hey, new mounts and pets and money for reward. Have gone through major guild changes--asshole officer finally stepped down, but only because he didn't want to deal with 'our bullshit' anymore (oh how that makes me lol). The general raid force gave him so many accolades it makes me barf to this day, as they just don't *know* how he was guilty of the things they hate most--going unenchanted, balking at using consumables, refusing to use the appropriate UI mods, not doing anything to improve his utterly shit healing. I wish I could publicly expose the shit he was, but it is not worth it now. Resigned as sub-officer before all this, and allegedly was going to be brought back on, but they screwed up and offered the task I would do to someone else, and offered me the task I didn't want to do. But eh, in a way it is ok just being plain old raider. Though I still miss the extra chat channel and TS channel, as there's much more socialization there than in the basic guild chat or basic TS channels. And a close ingame buddy left to go to another server, which bummed me out a lot. Left me thinking very much about leaving for another guild, but for now I'm hanging in there--don't want to leave those I am friendly with, including real-life friend and long distance real-life friend, just because of one-two people and some leadership doofusness. Maybe stuff can still be changed. Though last week asshole ex-officer was fucking with me some, but I note this week he and his sweetie are being civil if not friendly, and maybe they got scolded for the screwing around with behavior. We shall see. It happens again, and friends or no I will go--have another guild in mind, so don't feel as trapped :p
3. Family. Home is okay, and seriously a day doesn't pass that I don't think about how awesome it is that Mom's living here. She helps so much in so many ways, not the least of which is the 'roommate' feel I absolutely need for some reason, that leaves things feeling wrong when it's just James and me. Maybe because she actually shares the load, and it doesn't feel like it's me running the entire household. And I will say that the shorter work schedule plus Mom sharing household running tasks that I don't feel near the resentment I used to for the usual him going to work then coming home and doing nothing ever. Stuff does feel more balanced.
Stuff has been tough on mom though, because of my grandmother/her mother. Mom already was over at the assisted living facility most days, which for being 'one of the good ones' in town is holy fuck expensive and barely provides care (imo). There is so much that Mom or one of my aunts has to do, supplies they have to provide, and so much time they have to spend up there. But Grandma's 86, and has rapidly worsening congestive heart failure, has been having increased frequency of ministrokes that at times hampers if not outright interferes with her speech, and recently had a bout of pneumonia out of the blue. Sounds like they're going to be moving her to the hospice area, as various systems are starting to act like they're gradually shutting down. And she may be very old, and everyone does have their time, and Grandma may have not been the best person (and certainly has been *very* difficult these past months, and have treated those who care for her poorly), but it is still rough on Mom and her sisters/brothers.
Anyway, other than that, Mom's really turned the backyard into a bird haven, all sorts of feeders. And the cats are doing quite well, though Bebop who's in at the vet for teeth cleaning today might not think so. Crystal the incredibly amazingly old cat is still hanging in there, though Mom puts in an amazing amount of care for Crystal's feeding and grooming, since she's sort of like my grandmother and just can't do it for herself anymore and mostly just wants to sleep all the time (Mom's favorite style of nursing back when was gerontology and the nursing homes, and once upon a time started to get her masters in gerontology, does it show much?).
4. Music. I feel really out of the loop on this. There's nothing that's really spazzing me out lately, though I did buy re-released Porcupine Tree albums a few weeks ago, and the new Steven Wilson and new Blue October stuff. There's some singles on radio play that catch my attention (Dave Matthews' Funny The Way It Is, Hollywood Undead's Young, Depesche Mode's Wrong), but eh. Though I thought I heard mention of a new Linkin Park one, and yes, I am that sad/pathetic. I am wishing it were end of June so I could have the new VNV Nation album, oh how I wish.
5. Fandoms. What are these things I do not know. Seriously, why doesn't some anime or video game grab me these days? I sort of miss that feeling, especially since I honestly do want to read fic, but don't have something to read about. And I want new icons, but my usual icon communities just don't have much tripping my trigger these days, and I've got nothing I'm fanning over to add to my userpics. Bleh.
6. There is no rule number 6.
7. Tbh, you know what really rocks my world right now? Webcomics. Yaaay webcomics. And web graphic novels. And what have you. Overcompensating/Wigu, MSPaint Adventures, Horribleville (ended D:)/Gun Show, Reprographics, Octopus Pie, Three Panel Soul, Hijinx Ensue, QC, Pictures for Sad Children, Softer World, Hark A Vagrant, Templar Az, Wasted Talent, Blip/Hiro, Blank It/Grinders, XKCD, Bunny, PA, Two Lumps, Mows, Cat and Girl, Dark Legacy, Awkward Zombie, LFG, PVP, Dinosaur Comics, Allan, Id, Rock Paper Cynic, Jefbot, Bear Nuts, Explodingdog/Dog Hates ME, GGGuys, Hockey Zombie, Nerf This, Shrub Monkies, Girls With Slingshots, Garfield minus Garfield, Raymondo Person, idgi, Achewood, Console Hopping, Biff, DAR, Platinum Grit, Noob Comic, My Stupid Life, Looks Like Rain/Failure to Comply, Manic Graffiti, Wondermark, Slackerz, Anders Loves Maria, even still Flintlocke VS the Horde and VGCats. Still even check in on Rob and Elliot, wish Beaver and Steve would return, wait for more Butternut Squash (though I need to catch up on Kukuburi. Hm, should catch up on Toothpaste for Dinner and the Abominable Charles Christopher. I think webcomics = prozac (that and that goddanged cheezburger site, why can't I quit that :| )
You know, I sort of become blah on wanting to go to Blizzcon, and what's the point of going to anime cons if you're not fanning on anime--but my next con trip might be one of the webcomics/comics ones. Especially if they do NEWW again. Wanted to go to that so badly. Also there is still http://tjandamal.com/. Can't ever seem to get one of the preview booklets, but getting a shirt. Still looking forward to that glorious someday when it is complete ♥
Right, couple months = monster post. Let's see if I can do better from now on.
