a moment of.

[whitereflection]

I don't know if I can watch anymore.

Yeah, I probably will. But I feel like right now, I just can't take it anymore. That last scene...just I think broke me. Fucking nose-running crying, and just remembering that...thunk sound, I feel sick.

Fucking show. Thanks for showing there's really no hope. Thanks for breaking Dean and Sam down even more. Is there anything even left? They might as well show them just saying yes, get fucking on with it and quit drawing it out. Obvious that's where they're leading them anyway. There's no hope for anything else. And obviously Dean's got nothing left in him to fight with. Castiel knows true bitterness against a father and...and I can't see Sam being able to cling to the hope he's trying to drum up for long, not with Dean the way he is. Not after that last scene, which basically said everything that's happened in their lives has been too much, nothing can be fixed, nothing can be apologized for, there's too much hurt and yeah, there's no hope. So much for fixing things, bringing them back together. Feels too much like puzzle pieces that are to fucked up and damaged to be able to click back together again ever.

And you know, Dark Side of the Moon is one of my goddamn favorite songs, since I was in high school. And now when I hear it I'm gonna be reminded of this. Fucking hell, I can't stop crying.

Jesus. That last scene.

Comments

[cacklesthewitch.livejournal.com]

I know, of anyone, I want Dean to tell them where to stick it & the boys to stay united. It's depressing:(

But I have a feeling Sam with hold out (of course, I'm fairly spoiler-free, so I might just be being naive...)

[whitereflection.livejournal.com]

Fairly spoiler free also, but augh, I guess it's just made me so pessimistic is why I was/am feeling so gloom and doom about them both doing so. But if it were just one, I get this bad feeling it would be Sam actually, because it seems like the way they're writing him is that no matter what he does, it's the wrong thing, the wrong decision or choice, even if for good reasons. So it just makes me think they'd continue with that somehow. I keep hoping they surprise me, but dang, after tonight... Ugh, I'm so mopey, sorry. ^^;

[cacklesthewitch.livejournal.com]

Don't be sorry! This ep was cruel and unusual punishment for a fangirl. I'm feeling the hurt as well:(