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Ahahahaha. 8600+ words. It's so meandering. And it's all...*life*, so it doesn't have much plot, no conflict. It's just...life. And sap. Unrealistic sappy life. I'm so lame.

But 8600 words~ ♥. And it's not done. Have a major section left. X3 I shouldn't be, but I'm terribly pleased with myself. :p

Asdfsjk and Anj wants to beta *panic* It's so not her writer's group (much less her) quality. So I hope she doesn't totally fail it. T__T Need another beta though, someone who's into KHII and AkuRoku stuff. Normally I'd just self-edit and post, but this, it feels important to have a real beta. :x I may have to beg one of y'all.

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I'm offering if you don't get anyone else, hon--it's just that I need to warn you up front that I'm a very friendly, very encouraging, but very tough beta. Er, to be more specific, I'll go through a fic line by line if need be and if the writer seems like they're up for that sort of thing--BUT! You'll never get a beta from me that's all "you need to fix this."

Actually, you will never get a beta from me that says "you need to fix this" unless it's prefaced by "I think you maybe dropped a word here?" or "oh, your spellchecker goes mental on that word too, huh?"

What you will get is "wait, did you mean...?" and "I'm not sure about the flow here...maybe [*rearranges what's there into a different pattern*]?" and "wait, what about that thing back on page one? aren't you going to play with that some more?"

But more importantly? I don't believe in only telling folks what didn't work for me. I'm going to tell you aaaaaaall about what did work, and why. Cos if your strengths aren't encouraged, how on earth will you know to focus on them? So yeah, there will be squee. And commentary like unto those who talk to the actors while watching movies. And also squee.

Bottom line? I do my damndest to be gentle and tactful and diplomatic, and also encouraging, but I take betaing really seriously, and I think that's kind of intimidating for some folks...and it's fairly time-consuming, so I practically never offer. But for you I'll make time, because yours are the only Axel x Roxas fics I've ever read and they'll almost certainly remain the only Axel x Roxas fics I'll ever read, and yeah. *hearts*

But, y'know, if you'd rather hold out for a less freaky beta, I'll so totally understand!

I seem to be constantly "asfskjfjk" these days. XD Eep, I dare say. But seriously, I sometimes have moments of wanting to print out something like this so I can hug it like a kid with a stuffed animal. I know, I'm a weirdo. Still. ^__^ ♥♥♥

Anyway, you make me *sparkle* that you offered. I must admit, I'll probably have to take you up on it. :/ I have a fairly silent friends list when it comes to beta-requests, doesn't help only maybe two others are into KH. Other times I shrug when no one's willing, self-edit, and post anyway. But man, just once I want at least someone else to check it over. For some reason it's feeling oddly important to me that I go to extra effort--maybe since the mod was so gracious to let me have the prompt.

I won't lie, though. I'm massively intimidated. ^^; But I also don't wanna chicken out. I just know that between Anj here and you, it's so gonna get shredded XD; It's so run-on, and so full of passive voice (that I don't mind but Anj detests) and word repetitions, and I fear is boring as hell and requiring cuts that'd make me whimper. And I fear characters that aren't right, dialogue that's awkward, and, and I'm so doomed ahahaha XD;;

Heh, sorry. King and queen of insecurities and lack of confidence here. 8D Which isn't asking for pulled punches but does explain why after I send for betaing, I'll be hiding under my desk. ^^

But!! I also do know that these sort of things do take a really long time, and I know you're happiest doing your own writing (and life's been keeping you from that a lot of late :/ ) So I totally leave you the out that if it's too much or unsalvageable, you can totally change your mind about doing it. I know how it is to offer to beta something and then regret you did. ^^; Would never want to put you in that situation.

Right, time for me to quit making big deals out of things, heh. Just huge thanks and you made me sparkle, and I so wish I could give you hugs for real, at least 'til you started to twitch. XD

Oh, right. Just kind of the timing of it all--I'm *hoping* to finish Saturday, so I can edit Sunday, if all works out maybe present for beta Monday? Then the prompt day's July 9, if I'm recalling correctly. So about a week for the beta and then what I'd have to do to rework it. :x If that's not going to be good for your schedule, again no worries if you wanna change your mind. I let it go a bit closer to the submit date than I should've. ^^;

Oh wow, TOTALLY meant to reply to this when I got home (read this at work, heh!), and instead I came home and fell down in bed and that was that for the evening. *sheepish*

Anyway! Don't worry about the time--I don't have any "deadlines" coming up other than self-imposed ones, and we all know those are just...guidelines, really... *grins* If you get it to me on Monday, I'll do my damndest to have it back to you by Thursday at the latest--that way, if you want to send it back to me a second time for another look-over, you'll have time to do it before posting! And hey, I've got Wednesday off, after all, so even if you get it to be Tuesday night, I don't think Thursday will be a problem. *hearts*

That said, I'm going to show how incredibly selfish I am and say that if I didn't already like the way you write, I would never have offered to beta for you in the first place, even if I do consider you a friend. But but since I do know and like your writing, I feel like I know what I'm getting into and that it's going to be a lot of fun and not painful at all, for either of us! (And if it's possible to be more self-absorbed than that, don't tell me, I have too many unfulfilled goals as it is...) o.O

Wanna hear a fun trick I read about checking your dialog? Try reading it aloud--if it feels clunky to say, then it's probably clunky to read, but if it trips lightly off the tongue, then you've got a winner! I do that myself if I'm not sure of a passage...and I'm so glad I live alone! *snickers* Hey, I look crazy enough as it is, right?

Anyway, yeah, just hit me when you're ready--and send it to my gmail account, cos I never check any of the others! I carry my laptop with me everywhere, so even if I get it while I'm at work, I can just start on it then. Woo-hoo! *beams* Looking forward to it!

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