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perhaps, a summary
Dec. 22nd, 2008 08:31 amIt is hard to get back into the swing of things. Yeah, I'm alive. Bad couple of weeks around Thanksgiving, of the worst depressive crash I've had since maybe around 2000, pulled out of it, but then had some hormonal and my usual low mood swings. And tired/worrying/stressed/etc., and thus I hide. Really, really, really sorry to those who I never responded to emails, comments, such. I've been reading, thinkin/worrying about ya all. Just couldn't get the oomph to keep in touch. But *hugs* :< I know there's been a lot of hard stuff people have been dealing with.
Am getting through the holidays, at least. Not doing cards at all (apologies for that), and focused just on gifts for family and such local (money concerns and stuff :x ). Work has hit a real lull, though. I had a v small bit of overtime around Thanksgiving, and since there's been a lot of short days. Lately especially I'm lucky to get in a few hours a day before being sent home--Friday and today many including myself were told to stay home. And considering all time off is unpaid, and I'm only making miniumum...yeah. Bit dicey. If it doesn't get to normal in January, I have to look elsewhere.
Still have to find a way to get health insurance (none offered at work because of part-timeness). Can't go on James' because it went up in cost and is now beyond prohibitively expensive for just one person (since he's free). My COBRA from the university will last for near another year though, so maybe I can find something I can pay for myself. Self employed people do it all the time, right?
Lot of expenses of late, beyond holiday shopping. Did loan friend money (will be the last time), gave some funds to my cousin to help with my aunt's funeral expenses, had to replace the upstairs toilet, had a sensor go bad on the car. Starting to save for a water heater that we plan to replace by summer.
And of course, game is game. Got Ak to 80 well long time ago now, been grinding and grinding and grinding daily quests and heroics for rep, and have nearly driven myself mad with trying to get the jewelcrafting designs this way (I almost prefer just spending a ton on the auction house for them). Guild's been already doing some 10/25man stuff. And the levelling/early raiding has brought out the absolute WORST in people, it's nearly made me quit at the immaturity, selfishness, and assholery that's been going on. I'm very disappointed in a lot of people I'd up til recently thought highly of. Escapism should not be stressful. Yet at the same time...Wrath of the Lich King is so beautiful and so *extremely* well done in content/graphics/storyline that I am amazed at it always.
Anyway. Fandom...what is that, I do not know the meaning of this word. Seriously, I am actually reading *nothing* and fanning on *nothing* at the moment, and am rather bummed at this. :x I actually get a mental recharge from fangirling, and am missing that feeling. Need to set aside a little reading time...if I could just figure out what to read (still do want some YGO Bakurae stuff, but honestly ff.net has over the past month gone from vile to unreadable in that section.) Guess it's time to snoop through old fandoms or something.
Music...in a music lull. Stuff I really want (the new Eluveitie from this summer, the new Killers, did I hear Loreena McKennitt has a Christmas CD out?, Battles, etc), but I keep stressing about money so I've not been buying, even at Amazon's mp3 area. May allow myself to get some Elbow mp3s for my Xmas present to myself though, been craving more of their stuff most of the year, thanks to tidbits from Ms. GDP's TJ and Amal soundtracks.
Ok, I think maybe that catches me up.
Am getting through the holidays, at least. Not doing cards at all (apologies for that), and focused just on gifts for family and such local (money concerns and stuff :x ). Work has hit a real lull, though. I had a v small bit of overtime around Thanksgiving, and since there's been a lot of short days. Lately especially I'm lucky to get in a few hours a day before being sent home--Friday and today many including myself were told to stay home. And considering all time off is unpaid, and I'm only making miniumum...yeah. Bit dicey. If it doesn't get to normal in January, I have to look elsewhere.
Still have to find a way to get health insurance (none offered at work because of part-timeness). Can't go on James' because it went up in cost and is now beyond prohibitively expensive for just one person (since he's free). My COBRA from the university will last for near another year though, so maybe I can find something I can pay for myself. Self employed people do it all the time, right?
Lot of expenses of late, beyond holiday shopping. Did loan friend money (will be the last time), gave some funds to my cousin to help with my aunt's funeral expenses, had to replace the upstairs toilet, had a sensor go bad on the car. Starting to save for a water heater that we plan to replace by summer.
And of course, game is game. Got Ak to 80 well long time ago now, been grinding and grinding and grinding daily quests and heroics for rep, and have nearly driven myself mad with trying to get the jewelcrafting designs this way (I almost prefer just spending a ton on the auction house for them). Guild's been already doing some 10/25man stuff. And the levelling/early raiding has brought out the absolute WORST in people, it's nearly made me quit at the immaturity, selfishness, and assholery that's been going on. I'm very disappointed in a lot of people I'd up til recently thought highly of. Escapism should not be stressful. Yet at the same time...Wrath of the Lich King is so beautiful and so *extremely* well done in content/graphics/storyline that I am amazed at it always.
Anyway. Fandom...what is that, I do not know the meaning of this word. Seriously, I am actually reading *nothing* and fanning on *nothing* at the moment, and am rather bummed at this. :x I actually get a mental recharge from fangirling, and am missing that feeling. Need to set aside a little reading time...if I could just figure out what to read (still do want some YGO Bakurae stuff, but honestly ff.net has over the past month gone from vile to unreadable in that section.) Guess it's time to snoop through old fandoms or something.
Music...in a music lull. Stuff I really want (the new Eluveitie from this summer, the new Killers, did I hear Loreena McKennitt has a Christmas CD out?, Battles, etc), but I keep stressing about money so I've not been buying, even at Amazon's mp3 area. May allow myself to get some Elbow mp3s for my Xmas present to myself though, been craving more of their stuff most of the year, thanks to tidbits from Ms. GDP's TJ and Amal soundtracks.
Ok, I think maybe that catches me up.
