Di, you're gonna make me have to come out there and slap you around a bit for using such dirty words about yourself.

You. ~pokes you gently between the eyes~ Stop it. Stop trying to punish yourself, I can tell you you're wrong, you don't deserve it. It's not going to make it better my friend, trust me way too much practice at this end. It doesn't. It just makes you sicker at heart than you already are.

And it makes me sick at heart to hear you say it. Wish I could be there to sweep you away and distract you. Wish I could show you a path and walk it with you to keep you company. Please take it easy on yourself my friend. Try to find a quiet moment to step back and give yourself a break. There's nothing wrong with being overwhelmed, but I know you and you are good and you are strong. And it will be alright.