whitereflection: (supernatural impala shining white sky)
So yesterday the husband was out and about with friends, and I get a call from him on one of their cell phones. Car suddenly wouldn't do anything but first gear. So it's at a park across town until Monday when we can get a tow. Ffffffffffuuuuu- car repair T__T Worrying not just about cost, but considering Saturn's a dead line now, if parts will be available and how long the fix will take. You know, the whole that's-our-only-car thing. Ugh.

Finally used the iTunes gc from...was it my last birthday or Christmas, for the Erock EP and all the Born This Way remixes. Also found where to dl all the cover tunes Erock's done, via his website.

Anyway. This Friday. THIS FRIDAY. THIS FRIDAY. That is all. :p

must go to my happy place )
whitereflection: (sam dat ass)

This is the only, *only* version of this song I'll ever listen to. Goddang, I adore this guy. ♥

< an hour of sleep last night, been catching catnaps all day around errands since. Am such a zombie. I'm such a dumbass. If I could ever learn to fall asleep at a normal time it'd be a miracle. (And gotta love the feeling of not going to bed until 5, and still having to stare at the wall ages before sleep happens.)
whitereflection: (sam hero)
Ooooor it could be that I've gotten a cold. Yeeha and awesome.

I can't help it; I still think this kid is awesome.

I already felt such heartache for different places in the world, and now it's just heartbreaking. Reading the news, I just feel worried sick. I don't know what to make of it.

On a much, much more shallow note, honestly, fandom, why do you not have more top!Dean/bottom!Sam and top!Jensen/bottom!Jared fics. Grr. Same for more sick/hurt!Sam and sick/hurt!Jared fics. Especially ones where people actually remember the c part of h/c. The world needs way more good sick!Jared and sick!Sam fics. And by that I mean fics I don't have to write, because I can't write jack or shit anymore. Wharrgarbl.
whitereflection: (winchesters going home leaving home)
Artery by [livejournal.com profile] paxlux, Sam/Dean, R, 11,075
♥♥♥♥♥ I just. \o/ Freaking awesome fic inspired by a freaking gorgeous bit of Siken poetry. Reflections of the poem are woven into the story so well, and she writes the boys *SO* right--and with such brilliantly snarky banter and roughhousing between them. And I love how the snark is perfectly *them*, like tradition, the way they've always been--then becomes like a mask to hide the thing developing between them, and then shows the blend the old and the new of their relationship. This made me grin and snicker and laugh and want to draw hearts on things. And leave an overly long comment. (Again. ^^; ps Carhenge! \o/)

In other news, nearly set the oven on fire again. I dunno. I guess using two cookie sheets on the same rack screwed up air circulation so the thermostat wasn't reading right, and it just kept blasting hotter and hotter--nearly charred the parchment paper and the food thereon. Only realized something was wrong because of the smoke alarm, though it wasn't smokey at all (the heat, I guess?). Who knows. I suck. (Though I at least succeeded at break-apart cookies and nearly from scratch carbonara pasta). In other other news, I seriously freaking suck at a computer game. It is pathetic how badly so. Just makes it feel worse, not feeling truly comfortable, knowing that those certain few are judging me. I just..why do I make such *stupid* mistakes, and give them ammunition?

Also, love this song, so so much. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_wAS8JUP39I http://www.songmeanings.net/songs/view/3530822107858671084/


Jan. 27th, 2011 04:43 pm
whitereflection: (sam um...yeah :|)
Low mood, not feeling well, not getting done what I promised someone I'd do. And opened my virtual mouth and hit someone with major TMI and am regretting such. Way to push boundaries in the name of being sympathetic, self. I'm great at making people uncomfortable.

New warlock in guild (person from our old guild rejoining us) is, as I expected, kicking my ass hard in DPS. Not only is this person very good, but it just shows how bad of a player I am. I'm mistake prone, I forget things, I'm not efficient about spell rotations/cooldowns, my reflexes are crappy. I can keep trying to learn, but honestly that's what I've been doing for 6 years of gaming. I'm just at heart a lousy player, and it's kind of embarassing to have it so spotlighted again. Also, observing subtle sexism in game makes my stomach knot. Or maybe the individuals in question are just being assholes and it wouldn't matter who to--but I have this feeling, especially considering the past issue, that it's more than that.

Went to finally spend my Amz giftcard from my brother for my birthday last summer (I know...), and...I swear, I used to spend so damned much on music. But I could find barely anything I wanted. All my favorites, I mean, they're still good, but almost all of them are doing stuff that's no longer my musical tastes. Kind of sucks. At least picked up two new things from Ben Cooper: a new EP for his Radical Face work, and his latest Electric Presidents CD. At least, he's got 3 new projects in the works for 2011, so that'll give me something to listen to eventually. Also got the other Ian Astbury/Unkle song, and the newest Assemblage 23 for when I'm in an electronic mood. Just weird to still have a balance with Amz (not counting the iTunes gc from the husband I still have). I swear, I used to devour music, what the hell's wrong with me. Need to try to find new groups/artists to try, I guess. (Thought I was going to try more Mogwai, but I dunno, the samples just weren't hooking me like their newest did.)


I See Lightning, J2, NC17, ~3,100, breathplay
Leaving myself this to reread, seriously got under my skin. Not just because of the kink or the fact that it's so well-written--but how incredibly well she gets inside Jared's head and enables the reader to share that headspace, before, during and after. And the incredible feel of trust, caring and love that is shown between the two is as much the reason it was so powerful and intense as the kink and sex.


Wonder if this is 'coming down with something' or just allergy flare up. And wonder if the husband would mind pizza or something.
whitereflection: (sam in profile (bw))
All Fired Up, This Soul by [livejournal.com profile] cherie_morte, Sam/Dean (brief Sam/OFC and Dean/OMC), R, 13,450 words
From her summary: Slowly but surely, Sam gets his soul back. I have been wanting to rec this for DAYS, since I betaed part 1, and now I finally can \o/ So good, in so many ways. I really am in ♥ with this story--and Show so should have gone like this.

privacy of storm, J2, R, ~2,600 words
CASUAL INTIMACY IS MY FAVORITE THING IN THE ENTIRE WORLD THE END. I'm just sayin'. Gorgeous, gorgeous fic. Also, I leave stupidly incoherent comments at times.

Re: WoW. Got down Atramedes and Chimaeron tonight/last night/whatever, go us. The second was notable for the fact that it was the first time our group attempted it, and took just four tries to get the kill.

Dear winter: Stop making me itch, ffs.

Also, I'm sort of pondering ideas for a soulless!Sam fanmix, which probably says I'm a horrible person. Also also, I'm so gd tired, why am I still even up, I don't know.
whitereflection: (winchesters WAUGH D: D: D:)
So I am *handwave* in a mood. This should come as a surprise to no one. (I should make that a tag.)

The guild got a first kill on Maloriak (in Blackwing Descent) yest evening. Brings us to 6/12 of the current tier of raid bosses, and raises us to 7th ranked 10man guild on the server (4th Horde-side).

After totally botching my au-bingo and hc-bingo cards and the whole j2everafter thing, I have, yes, signed up for [livejournal.com profile] spn_j2_bigbang . ...ahahahahahahahahahahaha. Oh, self.

Once There Was a Darkness by [livejournal.com profile] zuben_eschamali, PG-13, J2 AU, 591 words
I love this ficlet/missing scene like freaking WOAH so much. It goes with her Darker Pieces of the Night story--the winged!Jared one--from a yet-to-be-written (but-better-be-written-really-freaking-soon!-\o/) sequel. It may be short, but it is SO chock full of things I love so much, they're practically kinks. I could read this scene over and over and ♥

I think I need to get my hands on anything and everything from the band Mogwai. Like now.
whitereflection: (Default)
*Happy birthday to [livejournal.com profile] purequicksilver! ♥

*Thanks, Anna and Jojo, for the v-gifts! ♥ & *hugs* to you two

*Guh. Should not be so tired from just two errands and two stores for groceries. (Am better, honestly, just the lingering cough is a bit annoying.)

*Wowowow )

*Mood's so weird right now. Got asked an uncomfortable question that I just can't answer without spotlighting how much how much of a failure I am. I hate looking bad to people, especially those I really like--but it's my own fault, isn't it? Just have gotten more and more down thinking about it. Yet at the store, even when I was running out of energy so badly, the music I was hearing made me sort of want to dance around. Self, what, just what. (Also, totally fangirled at Mom when I heard Little Lion Man on the radio again. Sort of amuses me that they refer to it as new, when I first got ahold of an mp3 in October of last year from the EP and the CD version in May. Ah, radio.)

*To balance the emo, cute! http://icanhascheezburger.com/2010/12/08/funny-pictures-well-heres-your-problem/ Kitty! \o/

P.S. Still not managing to reply to the last couple weeks of comments. -__- Nearly at 3 weeks worth? I'm so awesome at being a friend, asdfsdfkjf. :/ Sorry (again).
whitereflection: (Default)
Sudden, inexplicable, out-of-the-blue urge to hear that song again. Still makes me all teary ♥ I need to watch that movie again sometime soon. And I need to get the urge to write a J2-Anastasia AU *out* of my head, because I so need to start work on my [livejournal.com profile] j2_everafter Castle In The Sky AU like pronto and not get distracted by anything else. :x

Show tonight! \o/

Almost two weeks behind on comments and email D: D: D: Afdsfkjf so sorry T___T

Also...peppermint sandwich cookies, peppermint cocoa, peppermint spray-whipped-cream...is there such a thing as too much peppermint? >_> (Answer: No :B ) (PS Don't ask about the peppermint ice cream up in the freezer. :| And the peppermint mocha ice cream up there is my Mom's fault.) (PPS Peppermint is also way, way, way better than cough drop flavor. So tired of medicinal cherry-menthol >:pp )

ETA: OH RIGHT. ALSO. The radio station I listen to (http://897theriver.com/) played Mumford & Sons Little Lion Man this morning and that is the BEST THING EVER \o/ Never thought since discovering the group last year that such a thing would happen ♥ Also, Mom is awesome for still considering Muse's Resistance as her favorite song and bugging me to send her a link for the YouTube video of it :3
whitereflection: (supernatural impala interstatehighway)
J.K.'s Solstice Hard Cider (http://organicscrumpy.com/) is damned amazing, especially warmed. Tasty, I say, taaaaaasty. I almost never drink, and one reason is because it's hard to find alcoholic things where I like the flavor. This was awesome. Bought another bottle at the store today. :| I rationalized it as it's only going to be around a short time during the holidays. Split the one last night with mom, but she only wanted a small amount, so I ended up with about 2/3 the bottle. I'm heavy and was quite full thanks to so much foods, but yeah, I was very...mellow. :p (But truly, so very tasty.)

Re: WoW. Finally got my dk to 80, so I can ignore him until I level his alchemy come Cata. Am continuing to fall so hard for the new Orgrimmar. And ohman, I am kind of stunned at the detail they put into the female goblins' hair (no pcs yet, but the npcs all have the new appearances). It really puts the hair on other female toons to shame--really hoping the hairstyles get shared via barbershop with belves and nelves at the least.

Definitely avoided shopping areas today, though got a good number of gift things ordered online. So I'm doing much better than many previous years. And it's past Thanksgiving so I can allow myself to listen to my Christmas music YAY \o/ Happy happy.

Poetry for mininano/wrisomifu, the sort that could be read as original but is really about Dean&Sam. :p

And yeah, I had the song stuck in my head )
whitereflection: (winchesters desert)
Oh my god, thanks to [livejournal.com profile] zuben_eschamali for pointing me at a streaming vid link, so I could at least catch the last 2/3 of the later timezone broadcast while I had the full ep file downloading.

Anyway. 6.09 )
whitereflection: (winchesters my life in your hands)
Once again I am late to the party. Last night for the first time I tried Pandora, and FFFFFFF why have I never tried that before? BEST THING FOR MUSIC EVER \o/ Can tell that I'll tear through the free hours quick, though. :/

Holy shit, allergies today. So awful, so very, very awful. 'slike having all the worst parts of a cold, without the cold itself. Want to medicate myself into oblivion (sad, since I'm already on so much prescription stuff). But no oblivion. Need to get my mininano/wrisomifu stuff done. Ugh.

s6!Sam to Dean omggggggggg \o/ Even the mouseover text. ASW, how do you keep doing the *best* SPN type strips? I swear they watch show (okay, I'm certain they don't but wow, it fits so well...).

Self, go write words. 100. I don't give a rat what they are, just do it. *whine* want to set my sinuses on fire. on fire T_____T
whitereflection: (sam devil inside)
Decided to just write something short today, since I still want to rewatch Laputa: Castle in the Sky before I do more with that (and also since I'm tired, because being manic/giddy/wired yesterday meant not sleeping until after 4am >_>; ). Sort of inspired by the lyrics to this song:


windowglass )
whitereflection: (winchesters we three under the bridge)
I guess add this one to my list of songs that make me cry. Good golly, her voice.

This has to be the most perfect Dean-to-Sam circa 6.01 song ever. What I would give to have someone make a SPN video with it.
whitereflection: (sam control)
This is now my Sam song for pre-s6/6.01. Seriously. I just. In love with that song.

Also have heard the full song for the the trailer that's on the MCR site, Na Na Na, and am freaking nuts for it. Looking forward to sometime driving very fast to it.

re: WoW. Got heroic Sindrigosa \o/ Then we promptly screwed up, and did the Waiting A Long Time For This LK achievement wrong, tracking the wrong debuff. Fffffffff. It was a raid ID extention, too, so we have to wait until next Wed. to do it the right way and finally get our 10man drakes. So freaking disappointed. In the meantime, allegedly going to get the last achieve we need for the old Ulduar rusted protodrakes Sunday, just for the hell of it (hopefully Algalon, too).

Weird mood continues. Saving some fic in tabs for some reason the last few days instead of reading right away, while then rereading other older fic. Don't ask me why. I don't get me.

Ohyeah, and the mic part of my headset decided to go bad like out of the blue. One second it was fine, the next it's all fucked up and my talking's coming through as horrid static. It's weird, because the headphones part's just fine. And I don't hear it--but everyone else hears it. I dunno. I know they're old, like probably between 4-5 years old, but still, it's odd.

ETA: and this http://www.songmeanings.net/songs/view/3530822107858838511/ (Linkin Park - Iridescent) is so, so a Sam during Swan Song song. Good golly. ♥ And I imagine it's obvious that I'm really liking their A Thousand Suns CD. :| Really, really liking. :| (Time to sign off before I start spazzing about The Catalyst, too.)
whitereflection: (sam dangerous (bw))
I have rewatched this trailer for the new My Chemical Romance CD so, *so* many times these last few days. I need that song (Art Is A Weapon). Seriously, I neeeeeeeeeeeeeeed it. Can't wait for the full video, too--such visual crack. All those brilliant colors and wonderful, freaky, Mad-Maxish bizarreness. Hell, I want the whole CD like woah. But especially that song. Stupid tidbit is stuck in my heeeeead. (And so many phrases I want on SPN icons: "louder than God's revolver and twice as shiny", "the future is bulletproof", "it's time to do it now and do it loud"...yeeeeah). Criminy, I'm such a sucker for that sort of music. My brain is forever a teenager.

Cold is finally going away, though yesterday it finally caught up with me and I crashed hard. Spent the entire day sleeping. Just couldn't stop. It was a good thing Mom'd already offered to do soup for dinner, because I was utterly useless for anything but being a lump on the couch (and also a cat pillow).

My mood is very weird right now, and not in a ha-ha way. And outside, summer keeps trying to hold on. I'm behind on my comments, though fortunately/unfortunately there aren't many. And I've been so freaking bipolar about my writing these last few days it's not even funny (sometimes I think I need a writing therapist, honestly).

and yet another quirk of mine :x )
whitereflection: (winchesters should have been)
Title: There and Back Again
Author: [livejournal.com profile] whitereflection (Di)
Rating: PG-13 (Gen)
Word Count: 8138
Summary: It's a long road home, but for Sam, there's only one destination that matters.
A/N: Written for the Summer Of Sam Love Celebration 2010, for the episode 5.22/Swan Song. Set post-5.22, but will obviously be AU soon, and there are no spoilers for season 6. Thanks to the [livejournal.com profile] summer_sam_love community for letting me participate in such an incredible project. ♥ Thanks most of all to [livejournal.com profile] akintay for betaing, and to all my friends list for putting up with me. The title is borrowed from J.R.R. Tolkien, and the name J. Alfred Prufrock is borrowed from T.S. Eliot. One section was inspired by an image shared by [livejournal.com profile] paxlux. Cut text is from the song "It's An Ugly Life" by Electric President.
Disclaimer: Supernatural is owned by E. Kripke and the CW. Included music is property of the listed artists/bands and their labels.

I stumbled through the doorway and I fell out of my skin )

And just a little something extra for you all:

There and Back Again: a mini-soundtrack
tabafic music postcard

five songs (.zip)

1. Calexico and Iron & Wine - Dead Man's Will
2. Steven Wilson - Twilight Coda
3. Electric President - It's An Ugly Life
4. Halley - Kites Are Slow Downers
5. Daniel Lanois - Sonho Dourado


whitereflection: (supernatural impala endless skies bw)
Finally picked up the Wii Fit Plus I've been planning on getting. I'd sort of been putting it off, feeling like I shouldn't spend that much, but the money Dad had given me back on my birthday exactly covered the cost, so really, was I going to just put gift cash in the bank for normal day to day stuff? Though I just happened to be at Best Buy because I was also picking up SPN s5 DVDs, so where was my avoiding frivolous spending when it came to those? The thing is, I got s1 and s2 DVDs last year when I first fell for the show, but I've only put s3 and s4 on my wish list, had intended to do the same with s5, because I don't need any of those *right now*, can wait on them all. So why then? That damned keychain (yeah, I preordered). I am weak for stupid things.

Big B (Feat. Everlast a.k.a. Whitey Ford) - Before I Leave This Place
Not my usual style of music, but caught my ear on the radio. Made me choke up on first listen, made me outright cry when I just watched the video. I don't get me sometimes. Maybe it's hormones.
whitereflection: (dean waiting)
Title: FUCK YEAH CHICK FLICK MOMENTS: Power Ballads For Missing Your Brother While He's In Hell (A Dean/Sam Fanmix)
Subject: Dean Winchester
Pairing: Dean/Sam
Disclaimer: Supernatural and Dean and Sam Winchester are property of E. Kripke and the CW. All music included is property of the listed artists/bands and their labels.
Notes: For the recent [livejournal.com profile] spnland fanmix challenge. I still suck at graphics, but had fun doing this anyway.

For Dean. Call it what you will--hard rock, classic rock, cock rock, hair band heavy metal--most every band who played that sort of music had their ballads. Because even if you claim to have no chick flick moments, you know love and loss, you grieve, and you cry. This is the music to play during those times--when you're remembering your brother and missing him so damned much; when it hurts so fucking bad you wish he hadn't made you promise to live; when you're still loving him just as strongly, just as forever, as when he was still here.


Hold up your lighter... )

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